"Right. Odd-looking chap that, isn't he? A good sort though. I picked
him up at the Langham one night. I took this place from him when he
got married."
"He lived here?" (What, another wonder?)
"Yes. Well, I'll send your steak in. Good-bye." Billy bolted.
He had lived there too! How ex--how entirely to have been expected!
Louie walked round the room, looking at the walls, the ceiling, out of
the windows, anew. He had lived there: read, eaten, slept there; what
a coinci--what a perfectly natural circumstance! Then, leaning against
the wall, she found Billy's study. Her eyes devoured it. She set it
against the throne, and then walked to where he had stood when he had
entered. She gave a rich, low laugh; she told herself what a fool she
was; but folly so lovely made life. Again she looked at the wet
painting. She had looked so to him----
She put the study back against the wall, but in another place. "That
study's mine, Billy," she muttered; "mine, not yours or anybody
else's, do you understand? You gave him my violets; he's welcome to
them; this belongs to me. Jim! Jim!" she murmured.
"Well, I suppose it's crochet now," she went on by-and-by. "Do you
realise, Louie Causton, that you've sat your last? And have you any
idea of what you're going to do instead? It looks as though Kitty's
fifteen shillings would come in useful after all."
As if otherwise she might have forgotten it, she repeated to herself,
over and over again, that she was to meet him at Swan and Edgar's at
half-past ten. At one of the repetitions--it was as she was cooking
her steak over the little gas-ring that, perhaps, had once been
his--it occurred to her why he had muttered that quick "No, no," when
she had proposed that meeting-place. She glowed, she laughed through a
sheen of tender tears. "Dear, dear one! _You_ don't think that corner
good enough for us, my sweet little outcast and me. Well, we won't
thank you; we won't belittle him by thanking him, will we, Jimmy?----"
But she did not promise not to look her thanks when she met him at
Swan and Edgar's at half-past ten.
Presently she pushed her plate away; she could not eat. She had felt
her bosom rise once more. It had risen as it had never risen for
anything or anybody save for the little Jimmy, and it rose, it seemed
to her, for a similar reason. For in her hands even his physical
safety lay. He was to be mothered too. Her unfelt arms were to be
about him, the milk of her protection to be his life. By his strength
he had thought to give himself to somebody else, but by his need he
was still hers. A gladness richer than she had ever, ever known
swelled within her. He, the great weakling--she, the strong one, to
cherish and support----
"Jim!" she murmured, smiling, uplifted, lost. It was as if his weary,
tawny head was on her breast.
And she was going to hear his voice again, at Swan and Edgar's, at
half-past ten.
She feared that her own emotion might have exhausted her ere ever the
hour came.
II
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