Merely because it must be very late--she had no idea what time it
was--she grudged the going of the moments almost angrily. Already she
was becoming as hungry again as if she had not broken that long, long
fast. But she admitted that it was not unnatural that he should think
of his own concerns a little too, and want to ask her questions. She
began to answer the questions hurriedly, to get them over.--Kitty
Windus? Oh (she told him) he might leave Kitty to her; she'd answer
for Kitty!--His wife and her complete ignorance? (His wife's ignorance
appeared to be complete.)--Miriam Levey? (Oh, why would he not be
quick, and she so hungry!)--And then back to his wife again; what
about her? (he wanted to know). Louie wondered a little that he should
consider her to be his wife's keeper also, but she answered his
questions. That, she told him, was his private affair; but, if he
really wanted to know what Louie thought about it, Louie could not
conceive of a marriage with so huge a secret in it continuing
undisclosed. _Voilà_; there he had it; and _now_ might she please be
permitted to enter into her own happiness again?
She was back into it, bathing in it again, almost before she was
aware. A minute before she had not known what street they were in; now
she saw the Chelsea Hospital on the other side of the road. On this
side was a row of houses; she knew one of them; a painter for whom she
had sat lived there; his studio was in the yard at the back. The
thought of a studio was all that was needed. She thrilled again.
No more studios! So poignantly did she burn that she could hardly
imagine that her glowing did not communicate itself. Studios, after
that beautiful, beautiful sketch of Billy's? Good gracious, no! She
was going to Billy's to fetch that sketch on the morrow; she would
like to see Billy deny it to her! And that poor, poor old oyster-grey!
Just because he had seen her in it once she had mooned over it, smiled
over it, sighed over it; but it could go now--she had a richer
memory!... Furtively during the last few minutes she had been working
off her right glove; it slipped from her hand to the pavement; but she
was afraid to stop. Let it stay; somebody would turn it over with the
point of a walking-stick in the morning and perhaps wonder who had
lost it.... She stole another look at him; her hand crept along his
sleeve; the tips of her fingers were on his wrist; her lips shaped his
name: "Jim!"
Then, unexpectedly, it rushed upon her in full measure. She knew these
streets familiarly; they were in Swan Walk now; and the thing happened
all in a moment. Again, during those anxious questions of his about
Kitty Windus, Miriam Levey, his wife, she had that sense of his
terrible overweight: now, passing a doorway, he suddenly reeled. He
began to sink....
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