In an instant her arms were about him. Not the unfelt, immaterial arms
of her mothering vision in Billy's studio, not that other breast,
offered but impressed, sustained him; she held him within her two arms
of flesh and blood, upon that firm, warm bosom that changed its shape
to his weight upon it--the bosom he had seen yesterday, white hives,
all their honey his.... She bent and kissed the shoulder of his coat.
Oh, if he might but faint, quite, that she might carry him somewhere,
or, if she could not carry him, stay with him where he was--she cared
not--rest by his side through an endless night! Her heart, yes, her
lips too, called him; a whisper might not reach him; she called him
aloud:
"Oh, come, come! Come, come!"
* * * * *
Afterwards she thought of it as a hail from a ship to another ship
across a stretch of water so narrow that it was all but a stepping
aboard. How could such a hail be a farewell also? They were not
passing; as they glided side by side together, either seemed
stationary. Other things, the whole offing of Life, were in motion;
these slipped past, as it were sky, shore, shipping; but for a space
he and she spoke from bridge to bridge. And he heard the hail too, for
he opened his eyes. Though they never looked on her again they did so
now, relinquishing all to her. Was there anything she had not known?
There was nothing she might not know--now----
By-and-by she had helped him to a seat on the Embankment and had made
him sit down. She took off his tie and collar; she smiled as he
thanked her. "That was absurd," he said.
Then he asked her where she lived.
It was over.
Well, perhaps more would have been more than she could have borne.
But when she sat at last alone in the hansom he had called, conscious
that she was wet to the skin and that her boots needed to be resoled,
she still had the image of the ships before her eyes, gliding together
side by side, with all else in quiet, relentless motion behind them.
She held fast to it. She could not have endured to think that of that
night's long wandering all that would remain on the morrow would be
yet another dream and a wet glove left behind in an empty Chelsea
street.
III
Louie Causton would have been more than human had she not frequently
thought, as her life became a moving from pillar to post again, that
there was an exasperating proportion of absence in her heart's story.
But at first she was not petulant. Some absences are brimful, as other
presences are mere vacancy, and, now that she no longer sat, she had
other things, plenty of them, to think of.
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