At last the fates were kind to him, he thought. His health had improved,
he had a circle of friends and admirers, he was writing new poems,
getting old ones published, had finished a poetical drama, and had hopes
of seeing it presented on the stage. And Rahel’s house had become his
second home. He did not wait for her “at home” but came and went as he
pleased. She read and criticised every line he wrote, and her severest
censure never hurt his feelings. Very frequently her husband was also
invited to pass critical judgment on Zorn’s verses. Dinners and teas
with brilliant people, late evenings at Lutter and Wegner’s—the café
where the young literary talent of Berlin congregated to discuss the
latest book, the latest play, the latest musical composition.
Conversation was to him like reading: it stimulated his own thoughts.
And when he was not reading or arguing he was strolling along _Unter den
Linden_, swinging his cane, his eyes narrowed, his chest thrust forward,
gathering impressions. When fatigued from walking he dropped in at Café
Josty, famed for its _Kaffee mit Sahne_.
To be sure, moments of sorrow were not lacking even in those happy days.
His father’s financial condition had grown worse and then came the
crushing blow that Hilda was betrothed—that she had preferred an
everyday business man to a poet by the grace of God! Besides, he was
always short of a few _Louis d’or_ for which he would rob Peter to pay
Paul, and he was ever perplexed as to where his money had gone. Uncle
Leopold’s stipend came punctually on the first of the month, and
according to his calculations should see him through till the first of
the next, but somehow it never lasted more than a week. Ah, if he could
only catch up and start with a clean slate the next month! Every month
he would take a vow to be more regular in his habits, more
methodical—never, never would he be inveigled into a game of Pharo—but
then at the end of the week he found himself with but one _Thaler_ in
his pocket, with three more weeks before the first of the next month,
and he would then hasten to one of his friends to borrow enough to tide
him over the difficult period. Then, again there were other sorrows.
Albert had collected a number of his poems and wished to publish them in
book form but he was still unable to find a publisher. “The bats!” he
would mutter under his breath, “I turn the sun upon them and they see it
not.” Rahel was the only one who saw the light. It was heartbreaking.
Byron at his age was already famous and he—“Oh, the blind bats!”
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