But here at Goettingen his fellow-students never reminded him of his
birth, and even the professors had accepted the prodigal son rather
graciously. And he had a circle of admirers among the literary guild. To
be sure, there was petty jealousy among them, but they did not disturb
him. Talent must expect jealousy, he reflected soothingly; only the
feeble and the dead arouse no jealousy.
Indeed, Albert was now his true self. He pursued his studies regularly,
read much, and, as a diversion, made love to a pretty damsel or argued
heatedly with a few of his fellow-students. The problems that occupied
his mind while at Berlin troubled him no longer. When summer vacation
came, instead of spending it with his parents, he took journeys on foot,
with a knapsack on his back, through the Hartz Mountains, visiting Halle
and Jena and Gotha and Eisenach, and making mental notes of the
beautiful scenery around him and of the people with whom he came in
contact. He also paid a visit to Goethe, and found, to his astonishment,
that this Jupiter “understood German”—though he was prompted to address
the god in Greek—so in his confusion he told him that the plums on the
way from Jena to Weimar were very, very delicious . . .
II.
After the summer vacation he returned to Goettingen refreshed and
encouraged. On his pilgrimage he had learned that while he was still
unknown, many of his songs were gaining popularity. In one of the
taverns a pretty waitress hummed one of his love songs.
Everything now moved so smoothly; the professors were so kind to him,
the dean of the Faculty had invited him to his home and expressed
admiration for his ballads—he had compared them to Goethe’s—and the
old inner struggles had left him entirely. In a friendly talk the Dean
had hinted that there was a great future for him if—the learned
gentleman was kind and sensitive and hesitated—“if”—he stammered
again.
“If I were not a Jew,” Albert came to the rescue, an ironic smile on his
face.
“Yes,” the kindly man intoned. “You see,” he continued, “sooner or later
all these disabilities will disappear but in the meanwhile your—your
nominal faith is in the way.” He knew Albert’s faith was but nominal.
Albert dwelt on this remark but rather objectively. He only thought
subjectively when he suffered deeply. Of late nothing stirred his
depths. He followed the lectures of the Goettingen Solons, made merry
with the students, was praised for his wit and his verses, and wrote but
little; in fact, he had written almost nothing in the past nine months.
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