‘Body and soul of you,’ he went on fiercely, ‘hateful and glorious--I
might destroy them, mightn’t I, but never could I be rid of them. I
know there is no escape, Isabel. And now surely you can let me be. I am
bound to you now and for always. Isn’t that enough?’
Isabel smiled. ‘Enough,’ she cried. ‘It is everything; now or later,
what does it matter? I win. I win. Kingston,’ she added, dropping
indifferently from the heights of emotion to the plain lands of prose,
with something of that unconscious ease which one might have imagined
in the nature of a woman like Isabel the Queen, the very prose of whose
life was emotion, and whose emotion was so practical as to be daily
prose of her existence--‘ah, Kingston, I am tired. I am simply dropping
with weariness. Are we going to get down off this mountain to-night?
Because, if not, I must try to sleep in that hut we saw. And I know you
will not be able to run away from me.’
‘Sleep, by all means, if you can,’ he answered. ‘There is no going
down through this mist. Luckily the night will be fairly warm, and
by morning the clouds will have broken. But you will be hideously
uncomfortable, I am afraid.’
‘No,’ she replied; ‘I am naturally primitive. I have never minded
roughing it.’
Exhausted by their discord of wills, they now, by mutual consent,
talked coolly and indifferently, casting memory behind them.
Kingston helped Isabel to find the hut, and did what he could to make
it habitable. Then, leaving her to get what rest she might, he returned
to his thorny vigil under the old beacon. The air was motionless, and
not ungenial in its temperature. Enveloped above and below in blank
darkness, he had the sensation of being balanced softly in space. The
calm, after the ardent misery of their dialogue, was inexpressibly
refreshing. He abandoned himself to its placid influences, and instead
of devoting the night to a thrashing out of all the many difficulties
that threatened his relations with Gundred and with Isabel, he let it
drift him away into the domain of peace. He hardly knew how completely
exhausted he had been, and it was with the surprise which always
attends us when we find ourselves doing prosaic things that seem at
variance with the high dramatic moments of life they follow, that at
last he found himself floating quietly off in sleep.
Anguish was still there, deep down in his heart--a bruised feeling of
hunger and dissatisfaction, a great shame for himself, and a great pity
for his wife, as well as a firm resolve that she should not suffer.
But passion had dulled the edge of its own intensity; only dull aching
pains were left, rather than acute stabbing ones. Disappointment and
hopelessness possessed him in an inexorable but not agonizing grip. In
fact, he was too weary to feel the full weight of the yoke that was
laid upon him. Cradled in the great silence, his tired consciousness
sank at last to rest.
CHAPTER XI
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