But Gundred had great skill in ignoring all unwelcome topics; it was
very rarely that she remembered her cousin, and all the dim, remote
unpleasantnesses that Isabel represented. Her first year of married
life now loomed down upon her out of the distant past as a confused
nightmare-mirage of desert wanderings, from which her nice tact and
the favour of Heaven had brought her feet at last out into the Canaan
of prosperity, conjugal and social. The few brief sorrows of the past
assumed gigantic proportions in the haze of memory, and Isabel was
their incarnation. Gundred began to realise how directly Heaven had
intervened to relieve her of her cousin’s threatening presence, and,
though grateful for the service, it was to her credit that she retained
humanity enough to think the means adopted unnecessarily drastic. This
tenderness greatly elevated Gundred in her own eyes. She remonstrated
with Heaven--not acrimoniously, indeed, but with feeling, and devoted
many prayers to Isabel’s happiness in another world. But she rejoiced
over Isabel’s removal from this, and nothing could have given her
serenity a greater shock than any suspicion that her husband ever
remembered the dead woman with tenderness or longing. However, she was
protected from such perceptions as much by her own impermeability to
unwelcome truths as by her husband’s perpetual skill.
He had not come so far through life, safeguarding his wife’s happiness
and trying to behave decently, only to undo all the good by allowing
her now to see that he regretted Isabel. The course of years had
taught him to keep a shut mouth on all his aspirations. His mind was
apparently thrown wide for Gundred, but Isabel’s shrine was hidden
in the very holiest of holies. As Gundred roamed through his mind’s
reception-rooms, comfortable and clean and neatly decorated, she never
had any suspicion of that locked room in the very heart of his soul’s
dwelling, where the memory of Isabel was for ever worshipped. Many of
us, indeed, there are that keep a secret shrine, but few of us suspect
its existence in anyone else’s life. Gundred was perfectly happy in her
monopoly of her husband, perfectly confident that she knew every corner
of his mind. He, for his part, gave thanks for the salutary blindness
which so often makes life tolerable, and continued to make his wife a
visitor in the heart whose tenant was still the dead woman--the dead
woman whom he daily expected to meet again, whom every hour brought
nearer to the renewal of contact with himself. He had done his duty,
played his part, abundantly paid Gundred all he owed and could;
affection, respect, loyalty--of all these he had never failed for one
moment to give her in good measure; the secret impulses of his love
could not be controlled like their formal manifestations; no one could
exact it; not one could expect it. His own inmost heart still yearned
and cried for the return of Isabel, that return in which every day made
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