The days went by in a strain that was wholly absurd, but also
wholly unpleasant. Examining things in the light of healthy, normal
experience, Gundred could not even tell herself that she had a
grievance. She still feared and disliked the presence of Ivor
Restormel, with a fear which no reason could account for, but which no
reason could dispel. But in every way the boy was perfectly harmless
and even pleasant. Gundred, in her heart of hearts had expected that
her instinct would immediately be justified on closer acquaintance by
discovering that Ivor Restormel took drugs, or read French novels, or
had a tendency to gambling and kleptomania. She watched him carefully,
in public and in private, secretly and openly, hoping that some such
development might force her husband to recognise the soundness of her
intuitions, and get rid of the undesirable immigrant. However, none
of these idiosyncrasies could be brought to light, observe she never
so minutely. The boy was just an ordinary, nice, healthy boy; there
was nothing vague or mysterious or neurotic about him; his personality
had no strong colours anywhere, was altogether mild, unformed, healthy
in its growth. And yet Gundred, recognising all this, could not help
shrinking from him, shrinking from him more eagerly day by day, with
a vigour of feeling not by any means wholly attributable to her anger
against Kingston for disobeying her wishes in this matter. Among the
weak points of her character a lack of honesty could not always be
counted; she frankly acknowledged to herself that no fault could be
found with Ivor Restormel. Good, kind, companionable, nice-minded, he
appeared to be everything that she herself, by all the rules of her
code, should most warmly have liked and approved. This only made it the
odder, therefore, that she should feel against him so unconquerable a
secret dislike. Gundred almost felt as if it were not the boy himself
that she disliked, but some deep corner of his character which she
seemed to have known and dreaded for many years. She divined in him
a lurking enmity of which his own innocent and sunny nature was
altogether unconscious. But Gundred pulled herself up short at this
point, and refused to indulge in any such vain fantasies. People, it is
well known, do not contain these dual personalities; if Gundred dreaded
this boy, who, to all seeming, was everything sane and wholesome, her
feeling could have nothing to do with any nonsensical superstition, but
would certainly--if not sooner, then later--be disastrously shown to
have been founded on fact, by the discovery of its object’s carefully
hidden iniquity. Gundred, as the days went by, withdrew herself more
and more wholly from her husband’s life. Now she no longer took even a
formal share in it. She stood outside and watched for her opportunity
to strike at the intruder. That neither Kingston nor Gundred any
longer felt how completely they were removed from each other in itself
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