For Gundred was incapable of any true companionship with her son. He
admired her, he loved her distantly and diffidently, but he shrank
from her, and had nothing intimate or warm to say. That she was not
conscious of this flaw in their relation may be called the compensating
mercy of that weakness in herself which had developed that flaw.
She was by now almost entirely devoid of intuitive intelligence.
Or, rather, perhaps, she had so diligently trained herself that, in
the long course of time, she had drilled her mind out of any faint
tendency to perceive and analyze that it may ever have possessed.
Her sense of decency commanded her to live entirely on the surface of
things; prying into secret motives and feelings she considered vulgar
and indecent. Accordingly, if lip-kisses were properly exchanged, and
superficial affection reigned, she made a point of considering that
the soul-relations thus symbolized must be eminently satisfactory.
She looked no further than the symbol, and disliked the idea that
kisses and terms of endearment may, after all, not stand for the love
whose emblems they are--may even, at a pinch, be used to disguise the
lack of that love. And yet her hidden, shamefaced jealousy may be
taken to have been the last flickering phantom of the natural woman’s
insight into domestic relations. All his life she had grudged her son
his friendships, gently nipped them with the frost of her criticism,
sedulously taught him to find fault and be captious.
The education had borne no fruit in Jim, except a bitter one for
Gundred. His nature was too warm and sunny to have any real communion
with his mother’s frosts, and as soon as he found that she always
had something coldly unpleasant to say of everyone he liked, he had
responded, not by discarding his friends, but by drawing farther and
farther away from his mother. With the merciless clear-sightedness of
the young, so vivid, if so limited, he had judged his mother by her own
precepts long since, and found her wanting. She endlessly preached the
loveliest morality, the tenderest forbearance towards all the world,
the most sedulous avoidance of harsh or censorious comment. And yet
she was always sure to pick some fatal flaw in all his friends, to
discover and expose some blemish, to insist on some fault or weakness.
And the very fact that her criticisms were always more or less just
militated, in the end, against her influence. For Jim found that he
liked his friends more than he disliked their failings, and, taking
their side accordingly, he gradually came to look upon his mother’s
unerring eye for other people’s shortcomings as the worst enemy of his
own happiness. Thus pitiably, by the exaggeration of her own virtues,
through the keenness of her own maternal love, Gundred laid up for
herself inevitable disappointment in regard to the one thing that her
heart desired, and innocently prepared for herself a dark version
of the mother’s tragedy. By now Jim had his friends and his life to
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