‘Now you are trying to make me feel a brute,’ answered Isabel. ‘But
it is no good. If they are hurt, it is their own fault. Pain always
implies some weakness in the person who suffers it. And you can’t make
one person responsible for the inherent weaknesses of another, just
because his action has stirred certain hidden symptoms to life. You
might just as well scold me if I gave a tea-party, and somebody with
advanced consumption got a cold at it, and died off. The disease was
in him, not in me or my tea-party. And moral suffering is the symptom
of a sort of moral phthisis. Only the diseased can suffer. So, as
long as my actions are sane and healthy in themselves, you must not
call them names if they happen to stumble on weak spots and corns in
other people’s natures. I never knew the corns were there. I simply
went my way. Everyone has a right to. Everyone must. And one is only
responsible to one’s self, and only responsible for one’s self. So much
for your accusation of hurting other people.’
‘I never heard anything so callous in my life. If you were as bad as
your words you would be a perfect fiend. But, mercifully, everyone in
the world is better than their words, and worse than their thoughts.’
‘Ah! you are a sentimentalist, Kingston. I am a realist.’
‘Everyone thinks himself that. The only difference between the
sentimentalist and the realist is that the sentimentalist’s reality is
warm and beautiful, while the realist’s is glacial and hideous. And
they are neither of them real realities, either. The real reality has
something of both, and a great deal more than either or both together.
Each view is only a glimpse of the great whole.’
‘Yes; that’s not a bad idea. However old one may grow or think one’s
self, one remains astonishingly much of a baby in the face of the
immensities. I suppose to take any point of view is childish. One ought
to take them all together, all at once--be a drunkard and a teetotaler
and a bishop and a butcher and a thief and a saint all at one moment in
one’s own person. That is the only way to get the perfect knowledge.
And that, I suppose, is what the idea of God is. To understand
everything by being everything. However, as that is so, I don’t think
one need be ashamed of being a baby with lop-sided, partial, babyish
views and fanaticisms.’
‘Perhaps not. But you seemed to be proud of it. There is a great
difference between being proud and not being ashamed.’
‘Yes, Kingston, there is. And I admit it. And I give in. And I am
defeated. And I want my tea. And I will try to behave prettily. And be
an altruist with the tea-cake instead of an individualist.’
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