"Well, I'm off," she said, flushing. "I dare say you won't want to see
_me_ again."
Diana came feebly forward, clinging to the chairs.
"It wasn't your fault. I must have known--some time."
Fanny looked at her uneasily.
"Well, of course, that's true. But I dare say I--well I'm no good at
beating about the bush, never was! And I was in a temper, too--that was
at the bottom of it."
Diana made no reply. Her eyes, magnified by exhaustion and pallor,
seemed to be keeping a pitiful shrinking watch lest she should be hurt
again--past bearing. It was like the shrinking of a child that has been
tortured, from its tormentor.
"You are going to London?"
"Yes. You remember those Devonshire people I went to stay with? One of
the girls is up in London with her aunt. I'm going to board with them
a bit."
"My lawyers will send the thousand pounds to Aunt Merton when they have
arranged for it," said Diana, quietly. "Is that what you wish?"
A look of relief she could not conceal slipped into Fanny's countenance.
"You're going to give it us--after all?" she said, stumbling over the
words.
"I promised to give it you."
Fanny fidgeted, but even her perceptions told her that further thanks
would be out of place.
"Mother'll write to you, of course. And you'd better send fifty pounds
of it to me. I can't go home under three months, and I shall run short."
"Very well," said Diana.
"Good-bye," said Fanny, coming a little nearer. Then she looked round
her, with a first genuine impulse of something like remorse--if the word
is not too strong. It was rather, perhaps, a consciousness of having
managed her opportunities extremely badly. "I'm sorry you didn't like
me." she said, abruptly, "and I didn't mean to be nasty."
"Good-bye." Diana held out her hand; yet trembling involuntarily as she
did so. Fanny broke out:
"Diana, why do you look like that? It's all so long ago--you can't do
anything--you ought to try and forget it."
"No, I can't do anything," said Diana, withdrawing her right hand from
her cousin, and clasping both on her breast. "I can only--"
But the word died on her lips; she turned abruptly away, adding,
hurriedly, in another tone: "If you ever want anything, you know we're
always here--Mrs. Colwood and I. Please give us your address."
"Thanks." Fanny retreated; but could not forbear, as she reached the
door, from letting loose the thought which burned her inner mind. She
turned round deliberately. "Mr. Marsham'll cheer you up, Diana!--you'll
see. Of course, he'll behave like a gentleman. It won't make a bit of
difference to you. I'll just ask Mrs. Colwood to tell me when it's all
fixed up."
Diana said nothing. She was hanging over the fire, and her face was
hidden. Fanny waited a moment, then opened the door and went.
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