Well, what then? In the man looking down on Marsham not a tinge of
pharisaic condemnation mingled with the strange clearness of his
judgment. What are we all--the best of us? Lankester had not parted,
like the majority of his contemporaries, with the "sense of sin." A
vivid, spiritual imagination, trained for years on prayer and reverie,
showed him the world and human nature--his own first and
foremost--everywhere flecked and stained with evil. For the man of
religion the difference between saint and sinner has never been as sharp
as for the man of the world; it is for the difference between holiness
and sin that he reserves his passion. And the stricken or repentant
sinner is at all times nearer to his heart than the men "who need no
repentance."
Moreover, it is in men like Lankester that the ascetic temper common to
all ages and faiths is perpetually reproduced, the temper which makes of
suffering itself a divine and sacred thing--the symbol of a mystery. In
his own pity for this emaciated arrested youth he read the pledge of a
divine sympathy, the secret voice of a God suffering for and with man,
which, in its myriad forms, is the primeval faith of the race. Where a
thinker of another type would have seen mere aimless waste and
mutilation, this evangelical optimist bared the head and bent the knee.
The spot whereon he stood was holy ground, and above this piteous
sleeper heavenly dominations, princedoms, powers, hung in watch.
He sank, indeed, upon his knees beside the sleeper. In the intense and
mystical concentration, which the habit of his life had taught him, the
prayer to which he committed himself took a marvellous range without
ever losing its detail, its poignancy. The pain, moral and physical, of
man--pain of the savage, the slave, the child; the miseries of
innumerable persons he had known, whose stories had been confided to
him, whose fates he had shared; the anguish of irreparable failure, of
missed, untasted joy; agonies brutal or obscure, of nerve and
brain!--his mind and soul surrendered themselves to these impressions,
shook under the storm and scourge of them. His prayer was not his own;
it seemed to be the Spirit wrestling with Itself, and rending his own
weak life.
He drew nearer to Marsham, resting his forehead on the bed. The
firelight threw the shadow of his gaunt kneeling figure on the white
walls. And at last, after the struggle, there seemed to be an
effluence--a descending, invading love--overflowing his own
being--enwrapping the sufferer before him--silencing the clamor of a
weeping world. And the dual mind of the modern, even in Lankester,
wavered between the two explanations: "It is myself," said the critical
intellect, "the intensification and projection of myself." "_It is
God!_" replied the soul.
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