When I looked at the face of him I know not what insane desire, born of
an unconquerable disgust, came up in me to rush upon him and club him
down to the pavement with my stick and batter in that face—that face of
a blind idiot—and blot it out from the sight of the sun for good and
all. It was impossible to feel pity for the wretch. I hated him
because he was blind and an idiot. His eyes were filmy, like those of a
fish, and he never blinked them. His mouth hung open.
Blind and an idiot, absolute stagnation, life as unconscious as that of
the jelly-fish, an excrescence, a parasitic fungus in the form of a man,
a creature far below the brute. The last horror of the business was
that he never moved; he sat there just as his mother had placed him, his
motionless, filmy eyes fixed, his jaw dropped, his hands open at his
sides, his hat on wrong side foremost. He would sit like that, I knew,
for hours—for days, perhaps—would, if left to himself, die of
starvation, without raising a finger. What was going on inside of that
misshapen head—behind those fixed eyes?
I had remembered the case by now. One of the students had told me of
it. His mother brought him to the clinic occasionally, so that the
lecturer might experiment upon his brain, stimulating it with
electricity. "Heredity," the student had commented, "father a
degenerate, exhausted race, drank himself into a sanitarium."
While I was thinking all this the mother of the boy had gone on talking,
her thin voice vibrant with complaining and vituperation. But indeed I
could bear with it no longer, and went away. I left them behind me in
the deserted, darkening street, the querulous, nagging woman and her
blind, idiotic boy, and the last impression I have of the scene was her
shrill voice ringing after me the oft-repeated words:
"Ah, the dirty beasts of doctors—they robs us and impose on us and tell
us lies because we’re poor!"
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