Husband and wife -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
But in the end I found work, so why tell of the paroxysm of loneliness
which shook me that night like a madness? Never before had I known
anything like it, and nothing like it has seized me since. I must have
remained on my knees for an hour or more, largely for the reason that
there was nothing to get up for. Though I had had no dinner, I didn’t
want to eat, and what else was there to do? To eat and sleep, to sleep
and eat, that apparently would be my fate till my seventeen dollars gave
out. If the miracle didn’t happen before then—but the miracle began to
happen not long after that, and this is how it came to pass:
I got up and crept supperless to bed. There I slept with the merciful
soundness of fatigue, wakened by the crashing past my window of an
Elevated train to a keen sunny morning, with snow on the ground and the
zest of new life.
As I washed, I could hear my neighbor washing on the other side of the
partition. The partition was, in fact, so thin that I had heard all his
movements since he got out of bed. The making of one man’s toilet
taking about the same amount of time as that of another man in similar
conditions, we met at the doors of our respective rooms as we emerged to
go down-stairs.
I looked at him; he looked at me. With what he saw I am concerned; I
saw a stocky, broad-shouldered individual, with smooth black hair,
solemn black eyes, bushy black eyebrows, a clean-shaven skin so dark
that shaving could not obliterate the trace of hair, and a general air
of friendliness. Putting on the good-mixer voice, which was not natural
to me but which I could assume for a brief spurt, I said:
"Say, I wonder it you could advise a fellow where to get a breakfast?
Only breezed in last night—"
Between working-people there is always that camaraderie I had already
noticed in Drinkwater and Lydia Blair, and which springs from the
knowledge that where there is nothing to lose there is nothing to be
afraid of. While I cannot say that my companion viewed me with the
spontaneous recognition he would have accorded to a man of his own
class, he saw enough to warrant him in giving me his sympathy. The man
of superior station down on his luck is not granted the full rights of
the stratum to which he has descended; but even when an object of
suspicion he is not one of hostility. Between moral bad luck and sheer
fortuitous calamity the line is not strictly drawn; and wherever there
is need there is a free inclination to meet it.
"I’m on my way to my breakfast now," my neighbor said, after sizing me
up with a second glance. "Why don’t you come along? It’s not much of a
place to look at," he continued, as I followed him down-stairs, "but the
grub isn’t bad. Most of the places round here is punk."
Within ten minutes’ time I found myself in a little eating-place that
must once have been the cellar kitchen of a dwelling-house, sitting at a
bare deal table, opposite a man I had never seen till that morning.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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