"Very well for you to talk of dishonest men and crooked dealings," he
retorted. "You, that don't know the meaning of a straight deed--you
that flung over one chap and made him hang himself, and now have flung
over another. You may flounce and flirt and walk quick, but I'll walk
quick too, and I tell you you're no better than a giglet
wench--heartless, greedy, good for nought. You chuck Ned Baskerville
after keeping him on the hooks for years. And why? Because he came
down in the world with a run, and you knew that you'd have to work if
you took him, and couldn't wear fine feathers and ape the beastly
people who drive about in carriages."
Her lips tightened and she flashed at him.
"You stupid fool!" she said. "You, of all others, to blame me--you,
who were never tired of bawling out what a worthless thing the man was.
You ought to be the first to say he's properly punished, and the first
to say I'm doing the right thing; and so you would, but just because
you've lost a few dirty pounds, you go yelping and snarling at
everybody. You're so mighty clever that perhaps you'll tell me why I
should marry a pauper, who can't find work far or near, because he's
never learnt how to work. Why must I keep in with a man like that, and
get children for him, and kill myself for him, and go on the parish at
the end? You're so fond of putting everybody right, perhaps you'll put
me right."
The other was not prepared for this vigorous counter-attack.
"Very well for you to storm," he said; "but you only do it to hide your
own cowardly nature. You pretended you was in love with him, and took
his gifts, and made him think you meant to marry him, and stick up for
him for better, for worse; but far from it. You was only in love with
his cash, and hadn't got no use for the man. I'm not saying you would
do well to marry him for the minute; but to chuck him when he's
down----"
"You're a one-sided idiot--like most other men," she answered. "'Tis
so easy for you frosty creatures, with no more feeling than a frog, to
talk about 'love' and 'waiting.' There, you make a sane woman wild!
Waiting, waiting--and what becomes of me while I'm waiting? I'm a
lovely woman, you old fool, don't you understand what that means?
Waiting--waiting--and will time wait? Look at the crows'-feet coming.
Look at the line betwixt my eyebrows and the lines from my nose, each
side, to the corners of my mouth. Will they wait? No, curse 'em, they
get deeper and deeper, and no rubbing will rub 'em out, and no waiting
will make them lighter. So easy to bleat about 'faithfulness' and
'patience' if you're ugly as a gorilla and flat as a pancake. I'm
lovely, and I'm a pauper, and I've got nought but loveliness to stand
between me and a rotten life and a rotten death in the workhouse. So
there it is. Don't preach no more of your cant to me, for I won't have
it."
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