Civil service -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
He walked from Norfolk Street into the Strand, and there the world was
still alive, though it was now nearly one o'clock. The debauched misery,
the wretched outdoor midnight revelry of the world was there, streaming
in and out from gin-palaces, and bawling itself hoarse with horrid,
discordant, screech-owl slang. But he went his way unheeding and
uncontaminated. Now, now that it was useless, he was thinking of the
better things of the world; nothing now seemed worth his grasp, nothing
now seemed pleasurable, nothing capable of giving joy, but what was
decent, good, reputable, cleanly, and polished. How he hated now that
lower world with which he had for the last three years condescended to
pass so much of his time! how he hated himself for his own vileness! He
thought of what Alaric was, of what Norman was, of what he himself might
have been--he that was praised by Mrs. Woodward for his talent, he that
was encouraged to place himself among the authors of the day! He thought
of all this, and then he thought of what he was--the affianced husband
of Norah Geraghty!
He went along the Strand, over the crossing under the statue of Charles
on horseback, and up Pall Mall East till he came to the opening into
the park under the Duke of York's column. The London night world was
all alive as he made his way. From the Opera Colonnade shrill voices
shrieked out at him as he passed, and drunken men coming down from
the night supper-houses in the Haymarket saluted him with affectionate
cordiality. The hoarse waterman from the cabstand, whose voice had
perished in the night air, croaked out at him the offer of a vehicle;
and one of the night beggar-women who cling like burrs to those who roam
the street a these unhallowed hours still stuck to him, as she had done
ever since he had entered the Strand.
'Get away with you,' said Charley, turning at the wretched creature in
his fierce anger; 'get away, or I'll give you in charge.'
'That you may never know what it is to be in misery yourself!' said the
miserable Irishwoman.
'If you follow me a step farther I'll have you locked up,' said Charley.
'Oh, then, it's you that have the hard heart,' said she; 'and it's you
that will suffer yet.'
Charley looked round, threw her the odd halfpence which he had in his
pocket, and then turned down towards the column. The woman picked up her
prize, and, with a speedy blessing, took herself off in search of other
prey.
His way home would have taken him up Waterloo Place, but the space round
the column was now deserted and quiet, and sauntering there, without
thinking of what he did, he paced up and down between the Clubs and
the steps leading into the park. There, walking to and fro slowly, he
thought of his past career, of all the circumstances of his life since
his life had been left to his own control, and of the absence of all
hope for the future.
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