Civil service -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
'O no, I did not,' said he; 'besides, I hate gratitude. I don't want any
one to be grateful to me. Gratitude is almost as offensive as pity. Of
course I pulled Kate out of the water when she fell in; and I would have
done as much for your favourite cat.' He said this with something of
bitterness in his tone; it was not much, for though he felt bitterly he
did not intend to show it; but Mrs. Woodward's ear did not fail to catch
it.
'Don't be angry with us, Charley; don't make us more unhappy than we
already are.'
'Unhappy!' said he, as though he thought that all the unhappiness in the
world was at the present moment reserved for his own shoulders.
'Yes, we are not so happy now as we were when you were last with us.
Poor Katie is very ill.'
'But you don't think there is any danger, Mrs. Woodward?'
There are many tones in which such a question may be asked--and is
asked from day to day--all differing widely from each other, and
giving evidence of various shades of feeling in the speaker. Charley
involuntarily put his whole heart into it. Mrs. Woodward could not but
love him for feeling for her child, though she would have given so much
that the two might have been indifferent to each other.
'I do not know,' she said. 'We hope not. But I should not be sent with
her to Torquay if she were not very ill. She is very ill, and it is
absolutely essential that nothing should be allowed to excite her
painfully. I tell you this, Charley, to excuse our apparent unkindness
in not having you here sooner.'
Charley walked by her in silence. Why should his coming excite her more
than Norman's? What could there be painful to her in seeing him? Did
the fact of his having been arrested attach to his visit any peculiar
probability of excitement?
'Do not suppose that we have not thought of you,' continued Mrs.
Woodward.' We have all done so daily. Nay, I have done so myself all but
hourly. Ah, Charley, you will never know how truly I love you.'
Charley's heart was as soft as it was inflammable. He was utterly unable
to resist such tenderness as Mrs. Woodward showed to him. He had made
a little resolution to be stiff and stern, to ask for no favour and to
receive none, not to palliate his own conduct, or to allow Mrs. Woodward
to condemn it. He had felt that as the Woodwards had given him up, they
had no longer any right to criticize him. To them at least, one and
all, to Mrs. Woodward and her daughters, his conduct had been _sans
reproche_. They had no cause to upbraid him on their own account; and
they had now abandoned the right to do so on his own. With such assumed
sternness he began his walk; but now it had all melted before the warmth
of one tender word from a woman's mouth.
'I know I am not worth thinking about,' said he.
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