Civil service -- Fiction; London (England) -- Fiction
He had once declared to certain naval acquaintances, over his third
glass of grog, that he regarded it as his birthright to be an Admiral;
but at the age of seventy-two he had not yet acquired his birthright,
and the probability of his ever attaining it was becoming very small
indeed. He was still bothering Lords and Secretaries of the Admiralty
for further promotion, when he was astounded by being informed by the
Port-Admiral that he was to be made happy by half-pay and a pension. The
Admiral, in communicating the intelligence, had pretended to think that
he was giving the captain information which could not be otherwise than
grateful to him, but he was not the less aware that the old man would
be furious at being so treated. What, pension him! put him on
half-pay--shelf him for life, while he was still anxiously expecting
that promotion, that call to higher duties which had so long been his
due, and which, now that his powers were matured, could hardly be longer
denied to him! And after all that he had done for his country--his
ungrateful, thankless, ignorant country--was he thus to be treated? Was
he to be turned adrift without any mark of honour, any special guerdon,
any sign of his Sovereign's favour to testify as to his faithful
servitude of sixty years' devotion? He, who had regarded it as his
merest right to be an Admiral, and had long indulged the hope of being
greeted in the streets of Devonport as Sir Bartholomew Cuttwater,
K.C.B., was he to be thus thrown aside in his prime, with no other
acknowledgement than the bare income to which he was entitled!
It is hardly too much to say, that no old officers who have lacked the
means to distinguish themselves, retire from either of our military
services, free from the bitter disappointment and sour feelings of
neglected worth, which Captain Cuttwater felt so keenly. A clergyman, or
a doctor, or a lawyer, feels himself no whit disgraced if he reaches
the end of his worldly labours without special note or honour. But to a
soldier or a sailor, such indifference to his merit is wormwood. It is
the bane of the professions. Nine men out of ten who go into it must
live discontented, and die disappointed.
Captain Cuttwater had no idea that he was an old man. He had lived for
so many years among men of his own stamp, who had grown grey and bald,
and rickety, and weak alongside of him, that he had no opportunity of
seeing that he was more grey or more rickety than his neighbours. No
children had become men and women at his feet; no new race had gone out
into the world and fought their battles under his notice. One set
of midshipmen had succeeded to another, but his old comrades in the
news-rooms and lounging-places at Devonport had remained the same; and
Captain Cuttwater had never learnt to think that he was not doing, and
was not able to do good service for his country.
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