No one passed them on the walk back, but Dot clung close to him as
they walked, as though the mature years since college had never been,
as though simple happiness were again all that mattered.
The mature years....
Doug wondered. Somewhere, he had always known, there was the place
between resigned acceptance of things as they were and perpetual
refusal to recognize a condition for what it was. Somewhere, happiness
was a simple, honest thing, uncomplicated by the devious machinations
of sadistic moral codes that would make a struggle of that right.
Somewhere there was meaning to action, and the hypocrite was at last
fallen from the mocking pedestal of lip-service righteousness.
Somewhere, perhaps long ago, a man had said "I question" even as, at
the same time, another had said "I condemn" and another had said "I
follow". Thus far, had they travelled the same road, but here, the road
was forked. One was a wide path. One an aimless twisting thing that had
no destination. The other, narrow, and ever narrower as it progressed.
And there would be other forks, other paths, that split and re-split as
they tracked the infinite reaches of time itself....
He remembered the first thing he'd learned in his first plunge into
space-mechanics research. _Space cannot exist without time; time
cannot exist without space. Space-time, then, is the fabric of the
Universe._
So the threads were real. As real as the fact that one day in his life,
he had decided to study law rather than to continue as a physicist.
There had suddenly been a new split in the thread, and he chose, and
had become an attorney, and then a man of politics.
What had Carl said? "... _you'd've made that try for the moon a success
last month instead of another near-miss_ ..."
And how many other might-have-beens could there be?
_We conceive of Time, as it is integral with the structure of Space, an
infinite_ ... The second thing he had learned.
And therefore--therefore each thread of might-have-been, unto itself,
_was_.
_Somewhere, there was a Congressman named Douglas Blair. Somewhere,
there was an astro-physicist, an artist, a sculptor, a writer, a
cab-driver, a general, a sailor, a doctor, a thief, perhaps even a
corpse named Douglas Blair...._
"I know," he said to the woman at his side then. "Dorothy, I think I
know."
They entered the beautiful house set far back from a wide, beautiful
highway on a lush, beautiful lawn.
And he tried to explain, until he thought she understood.
He was tired, then. She located food in the house, and he found money
in a wallet in which the identification card said simply Douglas Blair,
Senior Quadrate of Games.
But everything was changed--everything. Not just himself, not just
Dorothy. A whole world. All on another thread, that had started back
somewhere, much further back. Through history, there had been so many
ifs....
In a little while she lay beside him, and they slept.
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