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He lifted her hand and kissed it. And when he spoke again, his voice
faltered: "When a man knows a woman like you, Charlotte, he sees that
happiness--or unhappiness--doesn't matter so much as he's thought.
There are other things--better things--to live for. You've found
them--and now I'm going to find them, too, my dear."
So, for the second time that day, Peter went from a woman who loved
him. The night and the stars and the flowers had done their best to
quicken his pulses; to blur his vision of the truth; to blunt his sense
of absolute, unswerving honor. But in the end Charlotte herself had
defeated what the night was fain to do for her with its witchery; she
had defeated the night's intents with her measureless honesty and
generosity--to which Peter's own generosity and honesty could but
respond. To use a woman like Charlotte as a barrier between himself
and another woman was impossible to him. Neither for Sheila's safety,
nor for any benefit to himself, could he do a thing so base. He
recognized now that marriage with Charlotte--even without that utter
love he had given to Sheila--might be a gracious, even a happy destiny
for him. But having found her so ready to sacrifice herself, he could
not sacrifice her. He could not rob her of the chance of being loved
as she could love. Such a love might come to her some day; he could
but leave her free for it.
As he walked homeward along the silent, wide street, other gardens than
Charlotte's flung their fragrance to him; the night still whispered to
him of the sweetness of being loved, of all those compensations from
which he had turned away. But he was not allured; he was not
vanquished. His course stretched before him--through the befogging,
unmanning sweetness--to daylight and self-respect and an uncompromising
sincerity of life. It stretched before him farther than he could
descry--as far as the great fighting, suffering, achieving world. Mrs.
Caldwell had once told him that he had never grown up, and that some
day he would have to grow up; that there could be no escape for him.
She had been right about it. Until now he had not grown up. Not even
in his love for Sheila and the pain of it, had he grown up. He had
been like a child playing in a garden, and though the sweetest rose
there had torn him with its thorns, he had stayed on in the garden.
But now he was a child no longer; there had been no escape from growing
up. He had put it off a long time--more than half his lifetime
perhaps--but he had not been able to put it off forever. And now,
yielding at last, he was willing to leave his garden; he was willing to
go out into the world of men.
As he neared the hotel where he lived, he met Ted Kent, quitting his
office--going home to Sheila.
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