Must we always be warned, and can we only fall on our knees when some
one is there to tell us that God is passing by? If you have loved
profoundly you have needed no one to tell you that your soul was a
thing as great in itself as the world; that the stars, the flowers, the
waves of night and sea were not solitary; that it was on the threshold
of appearances that everything began, but nothing ended, and that the
very lips you kissed belonged to a creature who was loftier, much
purer, and much more beautiful than the one whom your arms enfolded.
You have beheld that which in life cannot be seen without ecstasy. But
cannot we live as though we always loved? It was this that the saints
and heroes did; this and nothing more. Ah! truly too much of our life
is spent in waiting, like the blind men in the legend who had travelled
far so that they might hear their God. They were seated on the steps,
and when asked what they were doing in the courtyard of the sanctuary,
‘We are waiting,’ they replied, shaking their heads, ‘and God has not
yet said a single word.’ But they had not seen that the brass doors
of the temple were closed, and they knew not that the edifice was
resounding with the voice of their God. Never for an instant does God
cease to speak; but no one thinks of opening the doors. And yet, with
a little watchfulness, it were not difficult to hear the word that God
must speak concerning our every act.
We all live in the sublime. Where else can we live? That is the only
place of life. And if aught be lacking, it is not the chance of living
in heaven, rather is it watchfulness and meditation, also perhaps a
little ecstasy of soul. Though you have but a little room, do you fancy
that God is not there, too, and that it is impossible to live therein
a life that shall be somewhat lofty? If you complain of being alone,
of the absence of events, of loving no one and being unloved, do you
think that the words are true? Do you imagine that one can possibly
be alone, that love can be a thing one knows, a thing one sees; that
events can be weighed like the gold and silver of ransom? Cannot a
living thought—proud or humble, it matters not; so it come but from
your soul, it is great for you—cannot a lofty desire, or simply a
moment of solemn watchfulness to life, enter a little room? And if you
love not, or are unloved, and can yet see with some depth of insight
that thousands of things are beautiful, that the soul is great and
life almost unspeakably earnest, is that not as beautiful as though
you loved or were loved? And if the sky itself is hidden from you,
‘does not the great starry sky,’ asks the poet, ‘spread over our soul,
in spite of all, under guise of death?’ ... All that happens to us is
divinely great, and we are always in the centre of a great world. But
we must accustom ourselves to live like an angel who has just sprung
to life, like a woman who loves, or a man on the point of death. If
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