And yet, in spite of all, does it watch over everything from out its
invisible heaven. It warns and loves, it admires, attracts, repels. At
every fresh event does it rise to the surface, where it lingers till
it be thrust down again, being looked upon as wearisome and insane.
It wanders to and fro, like Cassandra at the gates of the Atrides.
It is ever giving utterance to words of shadowy truth, but there are
none to listen. When we raise our eyes it yearns for a ray of sun or
star, that it may weave into a thought, or, haply, an impulse, which
shall be unconscious and very pure. And if our eyes bring it nothing,
still will it know how to turn its pitiful disillusion into something
ineffable, that it will conceal even till its death. When we love, how
eagerly does it drink in the light from behind the closed door—keen
with expectation, it yet wastes not a minute, and the light that steals
through the apertures becomes beauty and truth to the soul. But if the
door opens not (and how many lives are there wherein it does open?) it
will go back into its prison, and its regret will perhaps be a loftier
verity that shall never be seen, for we are now in the region of
transformations whereof none may speak; and though nothing born this
side of the door can be lost, yet does it never mingle with our life....
I said just now that the soul changed into beauty the little things
we gave to it. It would even seem, the more we think of it, that the
soul has no other reason for existence, and that all its activity is
consumed in amassing, at the depths of us, a treasure of indescribable
beauty. Might not everything naturally turn into beauty, were we not
unceasingly interrupting the arduous labours of our soul? Does not
evil itself become precious so soon as it has gathered therefrom the
deep lying diamond of repentance? The acts of injustice whereof you
have been guilty, the tears you have caused to flow, will not these
end too by becoming so much radiance and love in your soul? Have you
ever cast your eyes into this kingdom of purifying flame that is
within you? Perhaps a great wrong may have been done you to-day, the
act itself being mean and disheartening, the mode of action of the
basest, and ugliness wrapped you round as your tears fell. But let
some years elapse, then give one look into your soul, and tell me
whether, beneath the recollection of that act, you see not something
that is already purer than thought; an indescribable, unnameable force
that has nought in common with the forces of this world; a mysterious
inexhaustible spring of the other life, whereat you may drink for the
rest of your days. And yet will you have rendered no assistance to
the untiring queen; other thoughts will have filled your mind, and it
will be without your knowledge that the act will have been purified
in the silence of your being, and will have flown into the precious
waters that lie in the great reservoir of truth and beauty, which,
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