"If John--John was asked to a beautiful party _he_ wouldn't be afraid to go." As soon as Michael's under lip had stopped shaking his eyelids began. You couldn't stop your eyelids. "It's not _afraid_, exactly," he said. "What is it, then?" "It's sort--sort of forgetting things." "What things?" "I don't know, Mummy. I think--it's pieces of me that I want to remember. At a party I can't feel all of myself at once--like I do now." She loved his strange thoughts as she loved his strange beauty, his reddish yellow hair, his light hazel eyes that were not hers and not Anthony's. "What will you do, sweetheart, all afternoon, without Nicky and Dorothy and Mary-Nanna?" "I don't want Nicky and Dorothy and Mary-Nanna. I want Myself. I want to play with Myself." She thought: "Why shouldn't he? What right have I to say these things to him and make him cry, and send him to stupid parties that he doesn't want to go to? After all, he's only a little boy." She thought of Michael, who was seven, as if he were younger than Nicholas, who was only five. * * * * * Nicky was different. You could never tell what Michael would take it into his head to think. You could never tell what Nicky would take it into his head to do. There was no guile in Michael. But sometimes there was guile in Nicky. Frances was always on the look out for Nicky's guile. So when Michael remarked that Grannie and the Aunties would be there immediately and Nicky said, "Mummy, I think my ear is going to ache," her answer was--"You won't have to stay more than a minute, darling." For Nicky lived in perpetual fear that his Auntie Louie might kiss at him. Dorothy saw her mother's profound misapprehension and she hastened to put it right. "It isn't Auntie Louie, Mummy. His ear is really aching." And still Frances went on smiling. She knew, and Nicky knew that, if a little boy could establish the fact of earache, he was absolved from all social and family obligations for as long as his affliction lasted. He wouldn't have to stand still and pretend he liked it while he was being kissed at. Frances kept her mouth shut when she smiled, as if she were trying not to. It was her upper lip that got the better of her. The fine, thin edges of it quivered and twitched and curled. You would have said the very down was sensitive to her thought's secret and iniquitous play. Her smile mocked other people's solemnities, her husband's solemnity, and the solemnity (no doubt inherited) of her son Michael; it mocked the demureness and the gravity of her face. She had brought her face close to Nicky's; and it was as if her mouth had eyes in it to see if there were guile in him. "Are you a little humbug?" she said.