Women -- Suffrage -- Great Britain -- Fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- Great Britain -- Fiction
He could see Alfred Orde-Jones--the raking swagger of the tall lean body
in the loose trousers, the slouch hat and the flowing tie. He could see
his flowing black hair and his haggard, eccentric face with its seven
fantastic accents, the black eyebrows, the black moustache, the high,
close-clipped side whiskers, the two forks of the black beard.
There couldn't be anything in it.
Orde-Jones's mouth was full of rotten teeth.
And yet he never came home rather later than usual without saying to
himself, "Supposing I was to find him there with her?"
He left off coming home late so that he shouldn't have to ask himself
that question.
He wondered what--if it really did happen--he would do. He wondered what
other men did. It never occurred to him that at twenty-two he was young
to be considering this problem.
He rehearsed scenes that were only less fantastic than Orde-Jones's face
and figure, or that owed their element of fantasy to Orde-Jones's face
and figure. He saw himself assaulting Orde-Jones with violence, dragging
him out of Desmond's studio, and throwing him downstairs. He wondered
what shapes that body and those legs and arms would take when they got
to the bottom. Perhaps they wouldn't get to the bottom all at once. He
would hang on to the banisters. He saw himself simply opening the door
of the studio and ordering Orde-Jones to walk out of it. Really, there
would be nothing else for him to do but to walk out, and he would look
an awful ass doing it. He saw himself standing in the room and looking
at them, and saying, "I've no intention of interrupting you." Perhaps
Desmond would answer, "You're not interrupting us. We've finished all
we had to say." And _he_ would walk out and leave them there.
Not caring.
He wondered if _he_ would look an awful ass doing it.
In the end, when it came, he hadn't to do any of these things. It
happened very quietly and simply, early on a Sunday evening after he had
got back from Eltham. He had dined with Drayton and his people on
Saturday, and stayed, for once, over-night, risking it.
Desmond was sitting on a cushion, on the floor, with her thin legs in
their grey stockings slanting out in front of her. She propped her chin
on her hands. Her thin, long face, between the great black ear-bosses,
looked at him thoughtfully, without rancour.
"Nicky," she said, "Alfred Orde-Jones slept with me last night."
And he said, simply and quietly, "Very well, Desmond; then I shall leave
you. You can keep the flat, and I or my father will make you an
allowance. I shan't divorce you, but I won't live with you."
"Why won't you divorce me?" she said.
"Because I don't want to drag you through the dirt."
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