The more he thought it over the less he liked it. He could not even lay
the spurious balm to his soul that "every man for himself" was the maxim
which justified everything--that the glorious fascinations of this woman
went wholly unappreciated by the man who should have been the one of all
others to prize them, and therefore were reserved and destined for
another, and that himself. This sort of reasoning somehow would not do.
It struck him as desperately thin in the cool judicial hour of waking.
He had behaved shabbily towards Blachland, and, the worst of it was, he
knew he should go on doing so. And as though to confirm him in that
conviction, at that moment the voice of the siren, clear but soft, was
borne to his ears.
What had become of all his misgivings now, as he sprang out of bed, his
one and only thought that of joining her as soon as possible? The
voice, however, was not addressed to him. It was merely raised in
commonplace command to the small Mashuna boys. What a lovely voice it
was! he thought to himself, pausing to listen, lest the splashing of his
tub should cause him to lose a tone of it: and he was right so far.
Hermia owned a beautiful speaking voice, and it constituted not the
least of her fascinations. Recklessly now Justin cast his
self-accusations to the winds.
And Hermia? Well, she had none to cast. Self-accusation was a phase of
introspect in which she never indulged. Why should she, when the rule
of conduct on which she acted with a scrupulosity of observance worthy
of a better cause, was "Get all you can out of life, and while you can"?
Never a thought had she to waste on the absent. It was his fault that
he was absent. Never, moreover, a misgiving.
Yet when Spence joined her there in the gateway of the stockade, the
eager, happy glow in his face met with scant response in her own. She
affected a reproachful tone and attitude. They had both done very
wrong, it conveyed. It could not be helped now, but the least said,
soonest mended. They had been very weak, and very foolish, but it must
never occur again. And all the while she was killing herself in her
efforts to restrain her laughter, for she fully intended that it should
occur again--again and again--and that at no distant period: but she was
going to keep her adorer's appreciation up to fever heat. To this
intent, he must be kept well in hand at first.
Well, he was submissive enough even for her, and again she was convulsed
with suppressed mirth, for she promised herself keen enjoyment watching
his struggles to keep within the bounds of conventionality she had
imposed upon him. The whirlings and buzzings of the impaled beetle of
her childhood's days, as the luckless insect spun round and round in his
efforts to free himself from the transfixing pin, were not in it with
the fun held out to her by the writhings of this six-foot-one victim.
And the sport was already beginning in his blank face and piteous tone.
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