Almshouses -- Fiction; Older women -- Fiction; Villages -- England -- Fiction; Women cleaning personnel -- Fiction
She scrubbed the stained patch over and over again long after it was
clean, and felt her spirits revive with every scrunch of the brush.
As she wiped off the soap only to put it on, for the second time that
day she remembered the last words of old Mr. T. He had said that
she was one of the fighters of life—a non-finisher, a never-ender.
With a grim humour she told herself that he would certainly say
so if he could see her now! She no longer felt bitter against the
well-intentioned old man, and indeed in those last words found a
distinct solace to her pride. God was put back in His heaven again
as soon as she began to scrub, and along with her forgiveness of God
went forgiveness of Mr. T.
Forgiveness seemed more possible than ever when her mind, without
any obvious reason, returned suddenly to Mrs. Bendrigg. At least she
would never see the heart fade out of her dream as she turned slowly
but certainly into that! The truth was, she told herself sturdily,
stopping to draw her breath, that she should never have asked for
the almshouse at all. She could almost have blushed for herself for
having descended to such weakness. Work seemed the only thing worth
having as she lathered and scrubbed, and Tibbie’s children no more
than a featherweight on her broad back....
She had, later, one rather terrible moment when she remembered her
promise to Martha Jane. The scrubbing brought to a stop with a
sharp jerk, she sat regarding the prospect with acute dismay. Pride
apart—and emphatically it would hurt her pride—it seemed impossible
that she could ever go back again to the House of Dreams. She could
shirk the promise, of course; there was nothing to bind her unless
she chose; and just for the moment she felt that the only thing
possible was to shirk. But her newly restored judgment warned her
that to weaken at any point was in all likelihood never to get
through at all; and so, ratifying the bond with distinct ruefulness
in her own mind, she put its obligations on one side for the time
being, and went back again, though rather more dismally, to her work.
It occurred to her presently, however, that there was one side at
least of the trying position which she had overlooked. Undoubtedly
there would be some slight compensation in observing how the
almshouses tackled the problem of Martha Jane! The thought of that
self-satisfied coterie faced with Miss Fell as a neighbour tickled
the charwoman even now. Indeed, it tickled her so much, combined with
her own experiences of the afternoon, that she found herself, quite
without meaning it, breaking into a laugh.
Mrs. Tanner, returning, could hardly believe her eyes when she
beheld her upon her knees, and still less could she believe that
laugh. “Poor thing—she’s a bit touched!” she said to herself, as she
hurried in; and then, rounding the table, met the upturned face,
tear-stained but normal, and wreathed with a joyful smile.
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