The Truth About Tristrem Varick: A Novel — John Shaqi
The Truth About Tristrem Varick: A NovelSaltus, Edgar
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The Truth About Tristrem Varick: A Novel
Saltus, Edgar
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The possibility that she might be indifferent to such homage did not,
for the moment, occur to him. He was loitering in the enchanted gardens
of the imagination, which have been visited by us all. It was the
improbable that fluttered his pulse.
Hitherto the life of Tristrem Varick had been that of a dilettante.
There had been no reason why he should work. His education had unfitted
him for labor, and his tastes, if artistic, were not sufficiently
pronounced to act as incentives. He handled the brush well enough to
know that he could never be a painter; he had a natural understanding of
music, its value was clear to him, yet its composition was barred. The
one talent that he possessed--a talent that grows rarer with the
days--was that of appreciation, he could admire the masterpieces of
others, but creation was not his. A few centuries ago he would have made
an admirable knight-errant. In a material age like our own, his _raison
a'être_ was not obvious. In a word, he was just such an one as his
father had intended he should be, one whose normal condition was that of
chronic pluperfect subjunctive, and who, if thrown on his own resources,
would be helpless indeed.
In some dim way he had been conscious of this before, and hitherto he
had accepted it, as he had accepted his father's attitude, as one
accepts the inevitable, and put it aside again as something against
which, like death, or like life, it is useless to rebel. After all,
there was nothing particularly dreadful about it. An inability to be
Somebody was not a matter of which the District Attorney is obliged to
take cognizance. At least he need do no harm, and he would have wealth
enough to do much good. It was in thoughts like these that hitherto he
had found consolation. But on this particular morning he looked for them
anew, and the search was fruitless. Not one of the old consolations
disclosed the slightest worth. He stood before himself naked in his
nothingness. The true knowledge of his incompetence had never come home
to him before--but now it closed round him in serried arguments, and in
the closing shut out all hope of her. Who was he, indeed, to pretend to
such a girl?
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