The TurnstileMason, A. E. W. (Alfred Edward Woodley)
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The Turnstile
Mason, A. E. W. (Alfred Edward Woodley)
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"I daren't be silent, Cynthia. There are just three great crises--some
would say three great catastrophes--birth, marriage, and death. The
first and the last happen. They are outside our control. But about the
middle one we do ourselves have a word to say; we can direct it. And
it's the most important of them all. For it means the beginning of
life for others, and the making or undoing of our own. Therefore you
can't afford to trust to luck, Cynthia."
"I am not trusting to luck at all," said Cynthia confidently.
"Aren't you?" asked Mr. Benoliel. "You are proposing to marry a man,
nineteen years of whose life--whose man's life--if you understand me,
you have had no share in, no influence upon, and have now no real
knowledge of. I am not suggesting that the conventional other woman is
somewhere in the background, waiting to appear at the marriage
ceremony with a baby in her arms," he continued with a smile. "But
during those nineteen years how many things must have happened to him,
trials and miseries and elations, to modify and mould his character?
And since you are ignorant of the things which happened to him, how
can you know the man?"
"Yet I think I do know him," said Cynthia, and her confidence
increased. She could meet Mr. Benoliel on this battle-ground. "And
without laying claim of any particular insight. For he has always been
careful that I should know him. From the very first day of our
acquaintanceship he has spoken and acted quite deliberately in order
that I might have no illusions about him. He has wanted me to know him
just as clearly as he knows himself."
Mr. Benoliel shrugged his shoulders.
"Does he know himself?" he asked.
"Better than most men," said Cynthia. "He has set out to use himself
as a machine and he has studied the machine unceasingly, its limits
and its capacities, so that he might use it to its fullest power." She
recalled Harry Rames's foresight, the careful laying of his plans, the
queer modesty which underlay his ambition to excel. She turned
triumphantly to Mr. Benoliel. "Oh, yes, he knows himself a good deal
better than youth can know itself."
"Ah!" said Mr. Benoliel, raising a warning finger. "I was waiting for
that. I admit that youth doesn't know itself. But then it's not so
important that it should. There's not, after all, as yet, so very much
to know. But take it this way. Suppose that you and Captain Rames were
both young and of an age! Suppose that he had the nineteen years which
separate you in front of him instead of behind him!"
"Well?" said Cynthia.
"Why, then, when he reached forty, you, the wife, would know him
better than he would know himself. A wife always does, if she lives in
sympathy with her husband. I am presuming that. You would know him a
good deal better than he knows himself now. The solitary nineteen
years, of which now I dread the consequences, you would have shared.
That's the point. And you wouldn't be running the danger you are
running now."
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