The TurnstileMason, A. E. W. (Alfred Edward Woodley)
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The Turnstile
Mason, A. E. W. (Alfred Edward Woodley)
Fiction
"I really want to hear," he said earnestly. "I ask for a particular
reason."
Burrell lit his cigar. The contest had impressed him deeply. But like
most men he was shy of revealing any strength of feeling. The eager
eyes of Rames, however, kept him to his task. He looked back over the
five weeks, gathering up his little sheaf of recollections.
"What remains in my mind," he said with hesitation, "is not the
excitement, nor the applause, is not the difficulty of making speeches
about subjects with which one is not half acquainted, nor the fear
of being asked questions for which one has no reply ready, but
something quite different. It is the memory of little bare raftered
school-rooms, hot with gas-light, crowded with white faces, faces so
hopeful, so--intolerably hopeful--the faces of people who look
confidently to candidates and Parliaments for so much more than it
seems to me Parliaments and candidates can ever do."
"Ah!" said Rames curiously. "You felt that too. I remember that I
did."
Burrell leaned forward.
"Did you too, though you shouted yourself hoarse with the rest, feel a
little ashamed?"
Rames reflected. "No," he said; "never." Then he added with a smile,
"but I think I should now."
"I did," said Burrell. "There were times when I wanted to stop my
speech in the middle and cry out, 'Don't look at me with such high
hopes. It's no use! It's no use!' But I held my tongue. For there's
always the little that governments can do. That's the consolation,
isn't it?" Burrell was finding it easier to speak out his thoughts
now. The false shame with which he had begun had quite left him. His
words tumbled out hot from his soul. The strangely curious, almost
envious, look with which Harry Rames, his tutor and leader, waited
upon him encouraged and urged him on.
"The fight, the excitement, the victory--oh yes, they are worth
having, even though one owes them to another, just as I owe them,
Captain Rames, to you. But now, after the victory, there's still the
little which can be done; and there's still the memory of the raftered
school-rooms, the hot gas-light, and the rows of eager, hopeful,
pallid faces to help one on to do it."
He stopped and leaned back in his chair. The shame of a young man who
has let his tongue wag before his elders and masters seized hold upon
him.
"But why did you lead me on to talk this sort of blatter to you?" he
asked in an aggrieved voice. "All that I have just learnt you knew
long since."
Harry Rames shook his head.
"Your opposition to Devenish's land bill shows it," Burrell insisted.
"Oh, we'll have a real policy of land reform, not an act of revenge."
Harry Rames leaned across the corner of the table toward young
Burrell. To the youth's eyes he looked at this moment extraordinarily
haggard and old.
"I'll tell you, Burrell, why I asked my question. I wanted to
recapture from you if I could something of a man's enthusiasm at his
first political victory."
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