England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
So the letter ended. I put it away, and went out. The solitude of my
room forewarned me unendurably of the coming solitude in my own life.
My interests in this busy world were now narrowed to one object--to the
care of my mother's failing health. Of the two women whose hearts had
once beaten in loving sympathy with mine, one lay in her grave and the
other was lost to me in a foreign land. On the drive by the sea I met my
mother, in her little pony-chaise, moving slowly under the mild wintry
sunshine. I dismissed the man who was in attendance on her, and walked
by the side of the chaise, with the reins in my hand. We chatted quietly
on trivial subjects. I closed my eyes to the dreary future that was
before me, and tried, in the intervals of the heart-ache, to live
resignedly in the passing hour.
CHAPTER XXXI. THE PHYSICIAN'S OPINION.
SIX months have elapsed. Summer-time has come again.
The last parting is over. Prolonged by my care, the days of my mother's
life have come to their end. She has died in my arms: her last words
have been spoken to me, her last look on earth has been mine. I am now,
in the saddest and plainest meaning of the words, alone in the world.
The affliction which has befallen me has left certain duties to be
performed that require my presence in London. My house is let; I am
staying at a hotel. My friend, Sir James (also in London on business),
has rooms near mine. We breakfast and dine together in my sitting-room.
For the moment solitude is dreadful to me, and yet I cannot go into
society; I shrink from persons who are mere acquaintances. At Sir
James's suggestion, however, one visitor at the hotel has been asked to
dine with us, who claims distinction as no ordinary guest. The physician
who first warned me of the critical state of my mother's health is
anxious to hear what I can tell him of her last moments. His time is too
precious to be wasted in the earlier hours of the day, and he joins
us at the dinner-table when his patients leave him free to visit his
friends.
The dinner is nearly at an end. I have made the effort to preserve my
self-control; and in few words have told the simple story of my mother's
last peaceful days on earth. The conversation turns next on topics of
little interest to me: my mind rests after the effort that it has made;
my observation is left free to exert itself as usual.
Little by little, while the talk goes on, I observe something in the
conduct of the celebrated physician which first puzzles me, and then
arouses my suspicion of some motive for his presence which has not been
acknowledged, and in which I am concerned.
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