England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; Love stories; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
It was not to be done. After a banishment of years, Mary had got back
again into my mind. I sat down once more on the river bank. The sun was
sinking fast. Black shadows hovered under the arches of the old stone
bridge. The red light had faded from the swift-flowing water, and had
left it overspread with one monotonous hue of steely gray. The
first stars looked down peacefully from the cloudless sky. The first
shiverings of the night breeze were audible among the trees, and visible
here and there in the shallow places of the stream. And still, the
darker it grew, the more persistently my portrait led me back to the
past, the more vividly the long-lost image of the child Mary showed
itself to me in my thoughts.
Was this the prelude of her coming back to me in dreams; in her
perfected womanhood, in the young prime of her life?
It might be so.
I was no longer unworthy of her, as I had once been. The effect produced
on me by the sight of my portrait was in itself due to moral and mental
changes in me for the better, which had been steadily proceeding since
the time when my wound had laid me helpless among strangers in a strange
land. Sickness, which has made itself teacher and friend to many a man,
had made itself teacher and friend to me. I looked back with horror at
the vices of my youth; at the fruitless after-days when I had impiously
doubted all that is most noble, all that is most consoling in human
life. Consecrated by sorrow, purified by repentance, was it vain in me
to hope that her spirit and my spirit might yet be united again? Who
could tell?
I rose once more. It could serve no good purpose to linger until night
by the banks of the river. I had left the house, feeling the impulse
which drives us, in certain excited conditions of the mind, to take
refuge in movement and change. The remedy had failed; my mind was as
strangely disturbed as ever. My wisest course would be to go home, and
keep my good mother company over her favorite game of piquet.
I turned to take the road back, and stopped, struck by the tranquil
beauty of the last faint light in the western sky, shining behind the
black line formed by the parapet of the bridge.
In the grand gathering of the night shadows, in the deep stillness of
the dying day, I stood alone and watched the sinking light.
As I looked, there came a change over the scene. Suddenly and softly a
living figure glided into view on the bridge. It passed behind the black
line of the parapet, in the last long rays of the western light. It
crossed the bridge. It paused, and crossed back again half-way. Then it
stopped. The minutes passed, and there the figure stood, a motionless
black object, behind the black parapet of the bridge.
I advanced a little, moving near enough to obtain a closer view of the
dress in which the figure was attired. The dress showed me that the
solitary stranger was a woman.
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