“Why?” said Grace steadily. “That is just what I cannot see. Nobody
could wish mamma to come now. What good would it do? It would be
dreadful for her;--and to him--to him!----”
Here, brave as she was, she had to stop, and could not say any more.
“Of course,” said the doctor softly, “your father is beyond all need. He
is safe now, whatever happens; but you--what can you do? Somebody must
come at once to take care of you, to take you home.”
Once more Milly’s eyes travelled from Grace to the doctor, and back
again. To have some one to take care of them sounded to Milly the only
thing that was left on earth to desire.
“No one,” said Grace, wondering at her own calm, “could be here for a
fortnight; and the first days will be the worst. After that things will
be easier. Don’t you see, everything that can happen will have happened
then; and why should some one--for it could not be mamma now, Milly; it
would not be mamma: why should some one be disturbed and made
uncomfortable, and forced to start at a moment’s notice, only to take
care of us? I can take care of Milly, and we can go home.” Another pause
till the tears were swallowed somehow. “It will be less hard, on the
whole, to go home by ourselves, than with any one else.”
The doctor was struck by this argument. He looked at them anxiously,
fragile as they were, looking like shadows of girls after the long
anxiety and strain of these ten days.
“Do you think,” he said, doubtful, “that you are able for it?”
“Able!” said Grace with the petulance of grief. “What is there to be
able for now? We have borne the worst. If it had been a week ago, and I
had known what was coming, I should have said, No, we were not able. But
now!” the girl cried with a kind of disdain, “now we have suffered all
that can be suffered, doctor. We can never lose our father again.”
Here Milly broke out into hysterical cries.
“Oh, papa, papa! Oh, Grace! What shall we do? What shall we do?”
Grace took her sister into her arms standing by the bedside, while the
other sat up, her hair hanging about her, her face distraught with a
passion of grief over which she had no control. The tears rained from
Grace’s eyes, but she stood firm as a rock.
“We must bear it,” she said; “we must bear it, Milly. We cannot have
that to bear again. We will not make it harder for mamma.”
This scene upset the kind doctor for the day; he could not give his
attention to the other cases which awaited him for thinking of this
heartrending picture. And as for the nurse, whose services were
imperatively demanded for another “case”--she could not bear to take
leave of them at all, but stole away as if she had done them a wrong.
“How could any woman with a heart in her bosom leave them in their
trouble?” she said, sobbing, to the doctor; “but I am not a woman, I am
only a nurse----”
“And there is a life to be preserved,” the doctor said. The woman,
after all, was only a woman, petulant and unreasonable.
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