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"Alas! I am too much myself," he answered in a low hoarse voice. "I am
here, Claudia, to make confession to you. I would, indeed, crave your
forgiveness, but I know that that is impossible." He was holding her
hand in his convulsive grasp, and his eyes were riveted on hers in a
fierce look full of a passionate devotion.
"Confession?" she asked quickly. "What secrets have you from me? Has
some other woman usurped my place in your heart? If so, tell me,
Dudley. Do not hesitate."
"No," he answered, trying to preserve an outward calm, "it is not that.
I love no woman but your own dear self. Surely you do not doubt me?"
"I have never doubted you. Sometimes I have been jealous--madly
jealous, I confess--but always without reason, for you have always been
loyal to me."
"I was loyal because I loved no other woman save yourself," he cried,
kissing her passionately upon the lips. "But all the joy must wither.
I am here to make confession, to reveal a ghastly chapter in my life,
and to take leave of you--and of life."
She saw how terribly agitated he was, and her woman's solicitude for his
welfare calmed her. "Come," she said tenderly, leading him towards a
chair. "Sit down and remain quiet for a little. You are nervous and
overworked." She placed her small, soft hand upon his hot brow, and
brushed back the dark hair from his forehead.
Refusing to sit, he stood before her, grasping the chair to steady
himself.
"No, Claudia; do not trouble about me. It is all useless now. The end
has come. Let me confess all to you. I know that what I am about to
disclose will turn your love to hatred; that my very memory will become
repugnant to you, and that mere mention of my name will fill you with
indignation and disgust. But hear the secret chapter of my life's
history before you judge. Let me tell you all," he added hoarsely.
"Let me lay bare the terrible secret that I have carried these six years
buried within my heart. Let me confess to you, the woman I love."
His words filled her with amazement. Her brows contracted, and her
breath came and went in short, quick gasps. Was she actually to lose
him? It seemed impossible.
"I am all attention, Dudley," she replied in a low, mechanical voice.
"Your confession, whatever its nature, shall find in me a safe
guardian."
"I cannot ask you to forgive, Claudia," he said, "I can only beg of you
to think that I have hidden the truth from you because I dearly loved
you and knew that exposure must result in the abrupt termination of our
love-dream."
"Tell me all," she urged. "Have no secrets from me."
"Then hear me," he said, his hard face white and drawn, while with his
strong hands he gripped the chair, striving valiantly to remain calm.
"I will relate to you all the hideous facts in their proper sequence;
you will see what a canker-worm of guilt has existed within me all these
years. For me, there is now no life, no hope, no love--"
"Except mine," she interrupted quickly.
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