American fiction -- 20th century; Divorce -- Fiction; Married people -- Fiction; Rich people -- Fiction
"I didn't tell him. He doesn't know. It wasn't his fault. That
is"--she paused for a moment, but her expression suggested solicitude
lest the naked truth should be disconcerting rather than shame--"I took
the chance. Neither of us intended to be married. He travels mostly,
and is here only two or three times a year. What would he do with a
baby anyway?"
The entrance of the butler with the tea things was opportune. It gave
Mrs. Wilson time to think. Her experience of women of this class had
been considerable. If not invariably penitent, they had always shown
shame or humble-mindedness. Here was a new specimen, degenerate and
appalling, but interesting to the imagination.
While the servant set the glittering, dainty silver service on the
table at his mistress's side the girl watched her and him with obvious
curiosity and a mixture of disdain and fascination. Now and again her
roving eyes took in the exquisite surroundings, then reverted to the
face of her would-be benefactress as to a magnet. It seemed to be the
triumph of a desire not to appear worse than she really was which made
her speak when they were alone, and Mrs. Wilson, still in search of
inspiration, was busy with the tea-caddy.
"I wasn't going to let her out of my sight until I knew she was safe."
She nervously compressed the back of one of her hands with the long
fingers of the other in the apparent effort to justify her course, a
consideration to which she was evidently not accustomed. "Wouldn't she
have had a better home at the expense of the State than any I could
have given her? And there was the chance you might take a fancy to her
and adopt her. She's less homely than the average new-born young one.
You see I thought everything over, lady. And next to its dying that
seemed to me the best chance it had for happiness in a best possible
world."
"Ah, but you mustn't talk like that. It's hard, I know, egregiously
hard. But you mustn't be bitter," said Mrs. Wilson, with mandatory
kindness.
The girl smiled in a superior fashion; it was almost a sneer. Her
desire to justify herself had been an involuntary expression. Now
vanity intervened, vanity and the pride of smouldering opinion. "I'm
not bitter; I'm only telling you the plain truth. I'm ignorant, I dare
say, compared to you; but I'm not so ignorant as you think. I've
thought for myself some; and--and all I say is that this isn't any too
good a world for a girl like me anyway, and when a girl like me goes
wrong, as you call it, and has a kid, instead of crying her eyes out
the sensible thing for her to do is to find someone to look after it
for her."
"Which only proves, my child, that such a thing ought never to happen
to her."
"No--not if she has luck."
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