He spoke with his chin in his hand and his eyes staring at the dark and
distant sea. “An operation,” he said, “might cure me.”
Her thoughts, it became apparent, had been travelling through some
broken and unbeautiful country roughly parallel with the course of his
own. “But need there be an operation?” she thought aloud. “Are they ever
any good?”
“I could die,” he admitted bitterly, and repented as he spoke.
There had been times, he remembered, when she had said and done sweet
and gallant things, poor soul! poor broken companion! And now she had
fallen into a darkness far greater than his. He had feared that he had
hurt her, and then when he saw that she was not hurt, and that she
scrutinized his face eagerly as if she weighed the sincerity of his
words, his sense of utter loneliness was completed.
Over his mean drama of pain and debasement in its close atmosphere
buzzing with flies, it was as if some gigantic and remorseless being
watched him as a man of science might hover over some experiment, and
marked his life and all his world. “You are alone,” this brooding
witness counselled, “you are utterly alone. _Curse God and die._”
It seemed a long time before Mr. Huss answered this imagined voice, and
when he answered it he spoke as if he addressed his wife alone.
“_No_,” he said with a sudden decisiveness. “No. I will face that
operation.... We are ill and our hearts are faint. Neither for you,
dear, nor for me must our story finish in this fashion. No. I shall go
on to the end.”
“And have your operation here?”
“In this house. It is by far the most convenient place, as things are.”
“You may die here!”
“Well, I shall die fighting.”
“Leaving me here with Mrs. Croome.”
His temper broke under her reply. “Leaving you here with Mrs. Croome,”
he said harshly.
He got up. “I can eat nothing,” he repeated, and dropped back sullenly
into the horsehair armchair.
There was a long silence, and then he heard the little, almost
mouselike, movements of his wife as she began her meal. For a while he
had forgotten the dull ache within him, but now, glowing and fading and
glowing, it made its way back into his consciousness. He was helpless
and perplexed; he had not meant to quarrel. He had hurt this poor thing
who had been his love and companion; he had bullied her. His clogged
brain could think of nothing to set matters right. He stared with dull
eyes at a world utterly hateful to him.
CHAPTER THE THIRD
THE THREE VISITORS
§ 1
While this unhappy conversation was occurring at Sundering-on-Sea, three
men were discussing the case of Mr. Huss very earnestly over a meatless
but abundant lunch in the bow window of a club that gives upon the trees
and sunshine of Carlton Gardens. Lobster salad engaged them, and the ice
in the jug of hock cup clinked very pleasantly as they replenished their
glasses.
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