England -- Fiction; Mothers and daughters -- Fiction
She continued: "Well, then, I think it's a mistake to play on the
child's emotions as you do; Joan's not so staid and quiet as she seems.
You may not realize how deeply she feels things, but she feels them
horribly deeply--when you do them. I've watched you together and I know.
You've done it for years, Mrs. Ogden, perhaps unconsciously, I don't
know, but for years Joan has had a constant strain on her emotions. She
loves you in the only way that Joan knows how to love, that is with
every ounce of herself; there aren't any half tones about Joan, she sees
things black or white but never grey, and I think, I feel, that she
loves you too much. Oh, I know that what I'm saying must seem
inexcusable, perhaps even ridiculous, but that's just it: I think Joan
loves you too much. I think that underneath her quiet outside there is
something very big and rather dangerous; an almost abnormally developed
capacity for affection, and I think that it is this on which you play
without cease, day in and day out. I feel as if you were always poking
the fire, feeding it, blowing it until it's red hot, and I can't think
it's right, Mrs. Ogden, that's all; I think it will be Joan's ruin."
"_Elizabeth!_"
"Wait, I _must_ speak. Joan is brilliant, you know that she's brilliant,
and that she ought to do something with her life. You must surely feel
that she can't stay here in Seabourne for ever? She must--oh! if I could
only find the right words--she must fulfil herself in some way--either
marriage or work, at all events some interest outside of and beyond you.
She's consuming herself even now, and what will she do later on? Yet,
how can she come to fruition if she's drained dry before she begins to
live at all? I don't know how I dare to speak to you like this, but I
want your help. Joan is such splendid material; don't let her worry
about you as she does, don't let her see that you are not a happy woman,
don't let her _spend_ herself on you!"
She paused, her knees shook a little, she felt that in another moment
she would begin to cry, and emotions with her came hard.
Mrs. Ogden blanched. So it had come at last! This was what she had
always known would happen; Elizabeth had dared to criticize her handling
of Joan. She felt a blind rage towards her, a sudden longing to strike
her. The barriers went down with a crash, primitive invectives sprang to
her lips and she barely checked them in time. She choked.
"You dare to say this, Elizabeth?"
"I love Joan."
"_What!_"
"I love Joan, and I must save her, Mrs. Ogden."
"_You_? How dare you suggest that the child is more to you than she is
to me; do you realize what Joan means to me?"
"Yes, it's because I do realize it----"
"Then be silent."
"I dare not."
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