Of course, Quincy laughed at this legend. But its conclusion--that the
marriage was unhappy, that the great man had been betrayed, that he
needed sympathy and rescue--stuck attractively in his mind. For this
very reason, perhaps, he failed to see how the myth reflected the
student body’s general emotional condition. As Garsted told him, since
his state also was reflected by the myth, there was no mystery in his
failure to psychologize it.
It was plain, all of that freshman year, however, that strange conflicts
raged in the boy about the Deering household.
“She always comes in and bothers him,” he remarked. “And the minute she
comes in, he tells her just what we’ve been talking about.”
“He knows you don’t mind,” said Garsted.
“But I do!”
“Will you stop confiding in him? Doesn’t that prove you don’t object?”
At length came an hour alone with her.
“Come in to see _me_, some afternoon,” she called to him from the
stairs, as the Professor and he sat in the study. Later, as he was
leaving, he found her watering the flowers. She was dressed in a frock
of faint rose. A bonnet hid all of her black hair. Her hands were
covered with sod.
“Come next Monday, Mr. Burt,” she said, scarce looking up from her work,
and not in the least anxious as to an answer. Quincy found it awkward to
accept to the back of her head. So he went on, without a word, perfectly
aware that he would be expected.
His anticipation of the visit was perturbed. He was fearful of what it
would entail. He was unwilling to leave it to hazard. He improvised
their dialogue; he edited his inventions and kept constantly
transforming them. All of his fancies were delightful. In them, he
impressed Mrs. Deering greatly. And in the later ones, when he gained
courage, she told him that she liked him more than any other of the
students. She confided in him what she had kept hidden from Garsted--the
secrets of her life. Quincy did not go into details with this. He
thought he might best leave that to her. But at the end, he went
completely disgusted with himself. He knew that the reality and his
imaginings would not agree. In his own fancies, he had exhausted the
pleasant possibilities. Infallibly, therefore, that which was going to
take place could not be pleasant. As he rang the bell, he felt that he
had injured the prospect of a happy time by imagining that happy time.
And then, as she opened the door for him, he forgot his speculations.
He began living in the present.
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