The nature of Quincy, however, made all this easier for Adelaide. These
were perhaps the blandest years, the most harmonious, of his life. But
even here there was within him a source of conflict, a rift, destined to
debar him from gracious or facile living. Adelaide found him slow to
follow up a game or play into which, with the best impulse, he had
entered. Always, there lay in him the instinct to retire, to grow cool,
to wander off lack-spirited before her own climax of enthusiasm.
Suddenly, she would find that his mood was changed, that he was
spiritually alone and aloof, while they pursued together the sequence of
some sport. And, once thus removed from their common-ground of interest,
there was no retrieving him. He would sit a-dream on the grass, cold
before the sand pile which their mutual eagerness was to have
transformed into a castle. If one addressed him then, he would not hear.
If one tried to shake him from his reverie, he would scratch and bite
and scream.
This was all Adelaide knew. But behind his failure, even as a child, to
sustain his interest, it mattered little in what end, there lurked a
serious cause. Quincy lacked soul-endurance. The part of him that should
have fired his acts seemed scant of fuel. And from this want had come a
timidness of purpose, a tendency to veer and flutter and give way. Not
only in the face of opposition was this true, but in the effort of
accomplishment, in the very fact of nearing what he had desired. The
imminence of approach to that toward which he had set out with heart
a-gleam, served to slacken his pace and to disaffect his will.
Adelaide had suffered from this, in their serious business of play.
Quincy’s own suffering, here as forever after, was to be indissolubly
set in the suffering he helped to cause in others.
And at the time of this first instance, with its result of a tragic
disaffection, he was not yet eight.
V
There was but a short interim between the alliance with Adelaide and the
beginning of the reign of Jonas.
These were dull days of autumn. And during them, Quincy was put to
school. This new event, however, appeared to involve him slightly. It
taxed a surface of his attention. Its influence was neither encompassing
nor deep. For Quincy was the kind of child who always precedes, in that
he is an individual, the class in which his years cause him arbitrarily
to be placed. With such, the average drone-exercise of school is an ugly
filler of what might elsewhere have been golden hours. But if the
business of reading and addition meant little to him, the new will of
Jonas to acknowledge him as vassal meant relatively much.
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