He worked hard. He took an occasional harbor sail in the evening. But
the fragor of the beaches was foretasted by the packed, chattering
masses on the boats. So that there was very little harbor and much
intimate association with nursing mothers, with romping boys, with
clamorous, obtrusive minstrels, with beery men. The water lay below all
this, a satined stretch, ruffled by rude craft, faintly musical and
faintly blue and faintly perfumed with the salt. But the irrepressible
boat shut it out for the most part. About it, there was naught faint or
vague. Quincy would sit in the stern and watch the huddled buildings of
lower Manhattan draw together as he drew away. What an eloquent memorial
they were--these unkempt buildings--to a vast energy run wild, arrogant,
lacking a soul to guide it. He knew the scene’s repute for beauty. But
he did little more than shrug his shoulders. New York’s aesthetic he had
long since recognized as an uncritical sentimentalism. A mass of
ill-related, misshapen, meaningless structures prodding the air with
imitation cathedral towers or Egyptian pyramids or fortress battlements
could not be beautiful. Yet, as they died away and the blue mist of the
harbor thickened and the myriad gold lights came out, shooting their
gleam into an overtone, and the water’s murmur turned to a sheen of
silver, and the whistles of the water-craft thridded the vagueness with
their sharp reports, Quincy changed his mind. The City was now a ghost
looming away, a thing of uncanny life, vibrant and portentous;--a thing
of beauty. Quincy went back to that first visit of discovery when he had
come down, thrilled with adventure, from his college and walked Brooklyn
Bridge. The City then had not needed the veil of night and the garlands
of the water to make it beautiful. It had not changed. He had. Was it
for the better?
It was a heavy summer. Quincy declined his two weeks’ vacation, earning
by this display of his heart’s emptiness, the praise of his employer.
Week-ends, he spent at home. But they did not rest him. And the little
copse in the rear of the house where he had once made revel, was a
mockery. The willow tree through whose fingers the sun fell each day
became a burden upon Quincy’s sight. It hurt him. He avoided it. He
remained with his family. He bathed with them, motored with them, sat on
the veranda, doing naught with them. Adelaide had never found him so
pliant, so agreeable, so heart-wrenchingly sad. But it was too late to
alter the course of this petty tragedy. They were side by side, needing
each other, as they had always done, starving and wasting away. They had
no hands to clasp each other with, no arms to hold with. But they had
breasts, hearts--vainly, since their lips were silent and their words
did not concord.
* * * * *
And so, came the fall.
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