Before him lay countless amorphous rows of children, with stern
sprinklings of teachers. He began. It was as if his voice went on of
itself--uncontrolled, aloof from him, so that he heard it from afar. He
had studied his rôle too well. It left no fear of his forgetting it. And
in the relief, back stole the thought of Jonas, the possible catastrophe
if he returned, while Quincy stood there droning out his duty. If his
duty was to be done, at least it could be gone through quickly. The
words flowed. He hurried them, as if pursuing from behind. It was a way
of getting back. And then, suddenly, his words stopped. He realized that
there were no others. He sat down.
He received little praise for his performance. His teacher, a stout,
florid creature, came up to him showing her teeth, as she did always
when she was irritated. She found fault with his rendition. But what
bothered Quincy was the thought that his hurrying had not brought nearer
his return. It had been useless.
He did not hate the woman only because of his indifference. About him
was a bustle of holiday excitement. Children laughed and ran about.
Teachers relaxed and Quincy noticed that when they became smirkingly
human they were still more disagreeable than when they had been
teachers. It was as if they had taken off their clothes. Greetings of
“Merry Christmas” interspersed the general murmur of voices and light
feet. It was all like a great, dim wave on the edge of Quincy’s
consciousness.
At last, however, the wave broke; the voices scattered; the eddies
lessened. And then, Quincy came home.
Jonas was not there. So he ate his lunch, tossed between gladness at not
having missed him and hollow perturbation at the deep-shadowed future.
For in this state, the coming home of Jonas was Quincy’s future.
His mother had said to Rhoda:
“Dear, if you have nothing to do, will you take the children for a short
walk in the Park?”
Rhoda had consented. The remainder of the meal was torture to Quincy.
But out of his new anguish was born a device. For he was resolved not to
go out, that afternoon.
As soon as the company had gotten up from the table, Quincy went bravely
up to Rhoda who stood alone in a corner. Rhoda was seventeen--a remote,
resplendent creature. She was dark and tall and very cold and very
occupied in her own mysterious affairs. Quincy looked up at her with
admiration, but with distance. He felt that she was beautiful. He felt
that he would not have minded had she kissed him--which she never did;
that he would have been glad, had she noticed him--which occurred scarce
more often. Now, however, he was inspired. So he went up to her
unhesitant, reached for her wrists, clasped them, and spoke.
“Sister.”
“Well?”
“Please, sister--make Mama not make you take me out, to-day.”
“What’s wrong?” She looked down, interested.
“Please, sister--I want to be here when Jonas is coming.”
He looked up piteously. And Rhoda laughed.
“All right. I don’t care, I’m sure. I’ll see to it.”
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