“A girl in love,” she said, “is a fool, but she has sense enough to
conceal her foolishness. A man is different. I suppose men are made that
way and can’t help themselves. But a man in love is not only a fool, but
he parades his foolishness. Almo sent me messages by all sorts of mutual
acquaintances, by his people and mine, by Flexinna, by Nemestronia, by
Vocco, begging me to exchange letters with him. I was angry and said
so and repeatedly sent him word that he was most foolish and most
inconsiderate. I sent him word that if he wanted to please me he’d
ignore my existence and stay as far from me as possible.
“He actually begged his father to be allowed to come to Rome. His father
had the good sense to keep him at Falerii. Now that all his relatives
are dead and he is his own master he has come to Rome. If he had any
real consideration for me he’d go to Aquileia, at least he might be
satisfied with a popular resort like Baiae or a place like Capua; Capua
has enough baths and shows and horse-races and gladiators for anybody.
“But he must come to Rome, when a spark of sense and decency would tell
him to keep as far away as he could. It stands to reason that I could
never be accused of misconduct with him if he had never been within a
hundred miles of me since I was taken for a Vestal.
“But he must needs come to Rome. He has opened his house on the Carinae
and had it put in order and has settled down to such a life here as is
usual with wealthy leisured idlers. He has bought additional furniture,
as if his father’s house wasn’t stuffed with everything magnificent, he
has bought curios and antiques and statuary and pictures and books. He
spends most of his time in the barracks of his favorite gladiatorial
company or at the stables of the Greens, and the rest of it at the
afternoon baths. I sent Vocco to him to protest and to urge him to leave
Rome for my sake. The selfish wretch said he loved me and always would,
but he just could not live anywhere except at Rome. He stays here, in
defiance of my wishes and against all reason.”
“That is not what I should have expected of him,” the Emperor meditated.
“I am surprised and far from pleased. I shall certainly find means to
relieve your mind as far as he is concerned.”
“There is worse yet to tell,” Brinnaria went on. “You’d think that, if
he must stay in Rome he’d at least have the decency to keep away from
me and from places where he is likely to encounter me. He does just
the reverse. He haunts me, he waylays me. He prowls up and down the Via
Sacra and the Via Nova, he stands in the moonlight and stares up at the
outside windows of the Atrium; on festival days he waits outside of our
entrance to the Colosseum or of the Circus Maximus to watch me enter; on
any day he loiters about the portal of the Atrium to watch me come out
to my litter or my carriage, he dogs me on my airings.”
“Hercules!” Aurelius exclaimed. “This is too bad!”
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