Bohemianism; English literature -- 19th century -- History and criticism
“O youthful benefactress! how often in succeeding years, standing in
solitary places, and thinking of thee with grief of heart and perfect
love—how often have I wished that, as in ancient times the curse of a
father was believed to have a supernatural power, and to pursue its
object with a fatal necessity of self-fulfilment, even so the
benediction of a heart oppressed with gratitude might have a like
prerogative; might have power given it from above to chase, to haunt,
to waylay, to pursue thee into the central darkness of a London
brothel, or (if it were possible) even into the darkness of the
grave, there to awaken thee with an authentic message of peace and
forgiveness, and of final reconciliation!”
Perhaps the passage describing how he befriended the small servant girl
in the half-deserted house in Greek Street is among the happiest, despite
a note of artificiality towards the close:—
“Towards nightfall I went down to Greek Street, and found, on taking
possession of my new quarters, that the house already contained one
single inmate—a poor, friendless child, apparently ten years old; but
she seemed hunger-bitten; and sufferings of that sort often make
children look older than they are. From this forlorn child I learned
that she had slept and lived there alone for some time before I came;
and great joy the poor creature expressed when she found that I was
in future to be her companion through the hours of darkness. The
house could hardly be called large—that is, it was not large on each
separate storey; but, having four storeys in all, it was large enough
to impress vividly the sense of its echoing loneliness; and, from the
want of furniture, the noise of the rats made a prodigious uproar on
the staircase and hall; so that, amidst the real fleshly ills of cold
and hunger, the forsaken child had found leisure to suffer still more
from the self-created one of ghosts. Against these enemies I could
promise her protection; human companionship was in itself protection;
but of other and more needful aid I had, alas! little to offer. We
lay upon the floor, with a bundle of law papers for a pillow, but
with no other covering than a large horseman’s cloak; afterwards,
however, we discovered in a garret an old sofa-cover, a small piece
of rug, and some fragments of other articles, which added a little to
our comfort. The poor child crept close to me for warmth, and for
security against her ghostly enemies. . . . Apart from her
situation, she was not what would be called an interesting child.
She was neither pretty, nor quick in understanding, nor remarkably
pleasing in manners. But, thank God! even in those years I needed
not the embellishments of elegant accessories to conciliate my
affections. Plain human nature, in its humblest and most homely
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