"If he were as honest a man as his father, I could forgive all the
rest," said Mr. Fenwick slowly, meaning to imply that he was not
there now to complain of church observances neglected, or of small
irregularities of life. The paganism of the old miller had often been
the subject of converse between the parson and Mrs. Brattle, it being
a matter on which she had many an unhappy thought. He, groping darkly
among subjects which he hardly dared to touch in her presence lest
he should seem to unteach that in private which he taught in public,
had subtlely striven to make her believe that though she, through her
faith, would be saved, he, the husband, might yet escape that doom
of everlasting fire, which to her was so stern a reality that she
thought of its fury with a shudder whenever she heard of the world's
wickedness. When Parson Fenwick had first made himself intimate
at the mill Mrs. Brattle had thought that her husband's habits of
life would have been to him as wormwood and gall,--that he would be
unable not to chide, and well she knew that her husband would bear no
chiding. By degrees she had come to understand that this new parson
was one who talked more of life with its sorrows, and vices, and
chances of happiness, and possibilities of goodness, than he did
of the requirements of his religion. For herself inwardly she had
grieved at this, and, possibly, also for him; but, doubtless, there
had come to her some comfort, which she did not care to analyse, from
the manner in which "the master," as she called him, Pagan as he was,
had been treated by her clergyman. She wondered that it should be so,
but yet it was a relief to her to know that God's messenger should
come to her, and yet say never a word of his message to that hard
lord, whom she so feared and so loved, and who was, as she well knew,
too stubborn to receive it. And Fenwick had spoken,--still spoke
to her, so tenderly of her erring, fallen child, never calling her
a castaway, talking of her as Carry, who might yet be worthy of
happiness here and of all joy hereafter; that when she thought
of him as a minister of God, whose duty it was to pronounce God's
threats to erring human beings, she was almost alarmed. She could
hardly understand his leniency,--his abstinence from reproof; but
entertained a vague, wandering, unformed wish that, as he never
opened the vials of his wrath on them, he would pour it out upon
her,--on her who would bear it for their sake so meekly. If there was
such a wish it was certainly doomed to disappointment. At this moment
Fanny came in and curtseyed as she gave her hand to the parson.
"Was Sam at home last night, Fan?" asked the mother, in a sad, low
voice.
"Yes, mother. He slept in his bed."
"You are sure?" said the parson.
"Quite sure. I heard him this morning as he went out. It was about
five. He spoke to me, and I answered him."
"What did he say?"
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