"Be sorry for yourself. Well--and too well--I know you. I had to spy.
I ban’t ashamed of it. There was nothing else but to tell him and let
him spy. And I couldn’t do that till I knew. ’Tis all of a piece--all
clear to any human mind--foul or fair. God judge me if I was quick to
think evil. I was slow to do it. I fought not to believe it. I tried
heart and soul not to see it. But you took good care I should see it.
Wasn’t you always after him? Didn’t you meet him in secret places
scores of times? How could I not see? And him coming to me; and you
pretending to want me to take him. Yet ’twas no pretence neither, for
’twould have suited you both well enough. And David, working day and
night, and trusting you, and always ready at a word to pleasure you.
That proud of you and hungry for your happiness-- But it’s ended now.
It ended to-day when I saw you in the wood. Not that I’ve not seen you
kissing him afore--fawning on his hand, by God! I’ve watched--yes--and
seen enough to know all I didn’t see. And he’s going to know it
too--David. He’s got to know for his own honour’s sake, and he shall."
"Will he believe it? Never! May God strike me here afore you, and kill
me slow the awfullest way that ever woman died, if by thought or deed
I’ve been false to him."
"Ah! Even so the man talked, and he’s alive yet. But the A’mighty won’t
forget either of you. You add lies to lies as he did. But I know
they’re lies. You needn’t talk as if I was a fool; I know him well
enough--none better. Did such as him--lecherous-minded beast that he
was--dance about in lonely woods and secret places with you for nothing?
If an angel from heaven told me you was honest I’d not believe it. And
I’m stronger than you think--stronger far than you--with David, I mean.
He knows I’m single-minded, anyway. He knows I’ve got no thought or
hope in the whole world except his good. He knows right well that I’ve
been a kind sister to you, and never done anything but strive for your
happiness as well as his. Till now--till now. And he’ll believe me;
for he knows that I couldn’t lie if I was tortured for speaking the
truth. And I am tortured--tortured as never a woman was tortured yet.
But he’s got to hear it; and he shall hear it afore that man goes. And,
as for you, whether he believes me or you, God’s my eternal judge but
I’ll never ope my mouth to you again as long as I live."
She said no more and went up to her room. Margaret waited a while and
then followed her; but Rhoda’s door was locked and she refused to answer
when the other spoke.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account