Then the wife descended and sat with companionship of her thoughts. She
lived through many hours of poignant grief. Again and again she fell
away stricken by her own heart; but she returned as often to the theme;
she strove to pierce the problem and see what her sister-in-law could
mean. How was it possible that such transparent innocence as Margaret’s
could from any standpoint look so vile? The bitterest enemy was
powerless to throw one shadow over her friendship with Bartley Crocker;
and yet here was her brother’s sister frenzied with this fearful idea,
and speaking of it as a fact proved beyond question. Rhoda believed in
it as surely as she believed in her own life. She was prepared to stake
her future and David’s love for her upon it. She was going to separate
Margaret from David, or herself from David, forever. One or other event
must inevitably happen.
A thousand plans of action rushed through the wife’s brain, and their
number defeated their varied purposes. Her native timidity served her
ill now. She did nothing but sit and think and reconstruct the past.
She remembered all the meetings with Bartley and their many plots and
plans to win Rhoda for him. She recollected the most intimate
conversations, when her nature or his formed the subject of their
speech. She had once kissed his hand in a sudden impulse, when he
announced the means to cure her mother. But she did not recall a single
perilous or dangerous pass between them; for indeed no such thing had
ever existed. Their regard was based on close and lifelong
understanding and friendship. There never had been a reciprocal passage
of passion, even in the days of her freedom. Her regard was the regard
of an ordinary woman for her favourite brother--an affection absolutely
untinged by any conscious sexual emotion whatsoever. Even at that, she
had not loved him as Rhoda loved David. She was not cast in the great
mould of Rhoda--great if unfinished.
At waste of night she began to perceive that she could be no match for
Rhoda. Her instinct of self-preservation inclined her first to David,
then to Bartley, and then to her father’s home. She determined at last
to rest until day, and sought her bed. She lighted a match in the dark
after a sleepless hour. It went out before she could reach a candle,
and she was struck by the trivial phenomenon that, long after the match
was extinguished, its light shone in her eyeballs and throbbed in the
gloom like fiery rings until the impression waned. She rose an hour
before dawn and dressed and descended. Then she went out and breathed
the chill morning wind. As yet it was quite dark. Looking up, she saw
that a candle burned in Rhoda’s room. Some subtle psychological instinct
crushed her spirit before the spectacle of that woman’s steadfast and
unsleeping watch. An impulse to get away from Rhoda overpowered
Margaret. She returned, fetched her sun-bonnet, and hastened off
without any fixed purpose of destination.
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