He paused to relight it, while Eliot sat rigidly still, waiting in tense
silence for the rest of the story. It all came out quite naturally and with
a blissful unconsciousness on Tony's part that the tale could have any
particular significance for the man beside him.
"She was the pluckiest girl I know," he wound up loyally. "Took it like
a real sport and never blamed me in the least. Most women would have
clamoured for my blood."
"Yes. I think they would." Eliot replied quite mechanically. He was hardly
conscious that he had made any answer, and when, soon afterwards, Tony took
himself off with a friendly: "Well, so long. See you in the morning,
perhaps?" he responded once more like an automaton.
He was aware of only one thing. His whole consciousness concentrated on
it. Ann was innocent--utterly and entirely innocent! There was no longer
any question in his mind. Tony's transparent simplicity and candour
in recounting his adventure at the Dents de Loup and its immediate
consequences was too self-evident to doubt, and although he had refrained
from mentioning the name of the girl who had been his companion--the
"pluckiest girl he knew"--it was equally clear that he had been narrating
the mountain episode in which Ann had been concerned and for which she had
paid so dearly.
Grimly, with a ruthless resolution, Eliot faced the facts. He had
completely and very terribly wronged the woman he loved. His suspicions
had been absolutely unjustified. With his own hand he had pulled down his
happiness--his own and Ann's, too--in ruins about them.
And there could be no going back--no undoing of what had been done. A man
cannot doubt a woman, as he had doubted Ann, and then, when she is proved
transcendently innocent, go back and tell her that he believes in her. If
he did, she would be quite justified in flinging his tardy assurances of
faith back in his face and thanking him for something of very trifling
value. Even if out of the limitless tenderness of her woman's heart
Ann forgave him--as, God knows, women are forgiving men every day
that dawns!--still their love would be robbed of something infinitely
precious--tarnished by an ugly and abiding memory. What was it Ann herself
had said about love? "_It's faith... and trust, Eliot_." He remembered her
grave, steadfast eyes and groaned in spirit, realising that he himself had
despoiled love of its very pith and marrow, its deepest inner significance.
There was no way out--no atonement possible.
Motionless, sunk in the inferno of his own thoughts, Eliot remained where
Tony had left him until one of the hotel employés, who had several times
glanced uneasily in the direction of the silent Englishman occupying the
seat by the window, finally plucked up courage to begin switching off the
lights for the night.
"_Pardon, m'sieu_". he murmured deprecatingly as he passed by the still
figure in the course of his tour of the room.
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