Eliot stared at the man with blank, incurious eyes. Then he rose slowly to
his feet and walked out of the hotel--moving with a peculiar precision like
one who walks in a trance. After that he lost count of time. He went down
into the depths and the dark waters of a grief and agony that was nigh to
madness submerged him.
When he came to himself it was to find that it was late afternoon and that
he was back again in his room at the hotel. He could not have given the
faintest account of how he had passed the hours which had intervened since
he had walked out of the hotel into the moonlit night--whether he had eaten
or drunken or where he had been. He had a vague recollection of wandering
aimlessly about the streets, and then of diverging from the town into the
country because he had twice encountered the same _gendarme_ and on the
second occasion the man had followed him for a few yards suspiciously.
Beyond that he remembered nothing. He was only conscious of a physical
fatigue so intense, so racking in every nerve and sinew and fibre of his
body that for the time being it deadened even the mental torture he had
been enduring. He flung himself down on his bed and slept till the noonday
sun was high in the heavens, flooding his room with light.
When he resumed the normal usages of life once more and reappeared
downstairs, he found that the Brabazons and Lady Doreen Neville and her
mother had all gone their several ways. They were the only people with whom
he had any acquaintance, and in an odd, indefinable way he missed their
presence. He spent almost all his time at the Casino, working out and
experimenting with different systems. He had come to no decision as to how
he should order his future life, and until he had formulated some scheme he
found that he could only stop the hideous treadmill of his thoughts by
focussing his whole attention on the crazy gyrations of the spinning ball.
And then one day, about a month later, a letter was put into his hand,
bearing the Silverquay postmark. The writing was unfamiliar, and its
unfamiliarity woke in him a sudden horrible fear and dread of what the
letter might contain. Had some one written to tell him--what Ann could no
longer write and tell him herself? He slit the envelope and his eyes raced
down the lines of the sheet it had enclosed.
"_Dear Mr. Coventry_," ran the letter, written in Lady Susan's
characteristically big, generous hand. "_Probably you'll think me
an interfering old woman. I daresay I am. But try and remember that
I was young once and that just now I'm looking at life for you and
Ann through young eyes--and thinking what a long, weary lot of it
there is still to be lived through if you each remain at opposite
ends of the pole. The time will go a deal quicker if you are
together--it's like dividing by two, you know_.
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