Deulin, like the majority of Frenchmen, had certain mental gifts,
usually considered to be the special privilege of women. He had a
feminine way of skirting a subject--of walking round, as it were, and
contemplating it from various side issues, as if to find out the best
approach to it.
“The worst of Warsaw,” he said, “is its dulness. The theatres are
deplorable. You must admit that. And of society, there is, of course,
none. I have even tried a travelling circus out by the Mokotow. One must
amuse one's self.”
He looked at her furtively, as if he were ashamed of having to amuse
himself, and remembered too late how much the confession might mean.
“It was sordid,” he continued. “One wondered how the performers could be
content to risk their lives for the benefit of such a small and such
an undistinguished audience. There was a trapeze troupe, however, who
interested me. There was a girl with a stereotyped smile--like cracking
nuts. There was a young man whose conceit took one's breath away. It was
so hard to reconcile such preposterous vanity with the courage that he
must have had. And there was a large, modest man who interested me. It
was really he who did all the work. It was he who caught the others when
they swung across the tent in mid-air. He was very steady and he was
usually the wrong way up, hanging by his heels on a swinging trapeze. He
had the lives of the others in his hands at every moment. But it was the
others who received the applause--the nut-cracker girl who pirouetted,
and the vain man who tapped his chest and smiled condescendingly. But
the big man stood in the background, scarcely bowing at all, and quite
forgetting to smile. One could see from the expression of his patient
face that he knew it did not matter what he did for no one was looking
at him--which was only the truth. Then, when the applause was over, he
turned and walked away, heavy-shouldered and rather tired--his day's
work done. And, I don't know why, I thought--of Cartoner.”
She expected the name. Perhaps she wished for it, though she never would
have spoken it herself. She had yet to learn to do that.
“Yes,” said Deulin, after a pause, pursuing, it would appear, his own
thoughts, “the world would get on very well without its talkers.
No great man has ever been a great talker. Have you noticed that in
history?”
Wanda made no answer. She was still waiting for the news that he had
to tell her. The logs on the fire fell about with a crackle, and
Deulin rose to put them in order. While thus engaged he continued his
monologue.
“I suppose that is why I feel lonely this afternoon. In a sense, I am
alone. Cartoner has gone, you know. He has left Warsaw.”
Deulin glanced at the mirror over the mantel-piece, and if he had had
any doubts they were now laid aside, for there was only gladness in
Wanda's face. It was good news, then. And Deulin was clever enough to
know the meaning of that.
“Gone!” she said. “I am very glad.”
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