The Wanderer; or, Female Difficulties (Volume 2 of 5)Burney, Fanny
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The Wanderer; or, Female Difficulties (Volume 2 of 5)
Burney, Fanny
France -- History -- Revolution, 1789-1799 -- Refugees -- Fiction; Historical fiction; Refugees -- Fiction; War stories
'I have acquainted Mrs Maple that Miss Joddrel has determined upon
living, for a while, alone, and that her manner of announcing that
determination, in her letter to you, is so peremptory, as to make
you deem it improper to be produced. This, as a mark of personal
respect, appeases her; and, upon this subject, I believe you will
be tormented no more. With regard to the unfortunate secret of
Elinor, I can but wish it as safe in her own discretion, as it will
remain in your honour.
'For myself, I must now practise that hardest lesson to the
stubborn mind of man, submission to undefined, and what appears to
be unnecessary evil. I must fly from this spot, and wait, where and
as I can, the restoration of Elinor to prudence and to common life.
I must trust that the less she is opposed, the less tenaciously
she will cling to the impracticable project, of ruling the mind
and will of another, by letting loose her own. When she hears that
I deny myself inhabiting the mansion which you inhabit, perhaps,
relieved from the apprehension of being deceived by others, she may
cease to deceive herself. She may then return to her friends,
contented to exist by the general laws of established society;
which, though they may be ameliorated, changed, or reformed, by
experience, wisely reflecting upon the past; by observation, keenly
marking the present; or by genius, creatively anticipating the
future, can never be wholly reversed, without risking a re-bound
that simply restores them to their original condition.
'I depart, therefore, without one more effort to see you. I yield
to the strange destiny that makes me adore in the dark; yet that
blazons to my view and knowledge the rarest excellencies, the most
resistless attractions: but to remain in the same house, yet
scarcely ever to behold you; or, in seeing you but for a moment, to
awaken a sensibility that electrifies every hope, only to inflict,
with the greater severity, the shock that strikes me back to
mystery and despondence--no, I will be gone! Her whom I cannot
soften, I will at least forbear to persecute.
'In this retreat, my only consolation for your happiness is in the
friendship, so honourable for both, that you have formed with Lady
Aurora Granville; my only reliance for your safety, is in the
interest of Mrs Maple to detain you under her roof, for the
improvement of Selina; and my only hope for myself, is, that when
Elinor becomes reasonable, you will no longer let her exclusively
occupy your humanity or your feeling.
'ALBERT HARLEIGH.'
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