Marcia Haddon was looking at the young woman before her with a new and
strange feeling of curiosity, trying after her own ancient creed to be
fair, to be just. She was trying now to understand, to find as much
good as possible in the careless self-accusation of the young person
who spoke thus artlessly and directly. But that young person went on
now somewhat bitterly.
“We’re a good ways apart, Mrs. Haddon, I expect I hadn’t a thing
to start with but my laugh and my looks—they would have left me
comfortable if I’d never met your husband. If he’s gone now, all the
better for me now, like enough, and all the better for him—and maybe
for you too. You don’t know about my sort. Well, I don’t ask that of
you. There’s milk, and fresh milk, and bottled milk, and certified
bottled milk. You’re strictly respectable—you’re certified—you’re the
sort that’s been taken care of all their lives. Me—I’m uncertified,
I guess. It doesn’t make much difference to anybody now, does it? I
told—him—another man—I was going over with the Red Cross.”
Still striving to be just in spite of all, Marcia Haddon held her
speech, looking gravely at the other, who now went on, unsparing alike
of herself and her hearer.
“It’s late to give you a tip about how to handle a husband—but I could
have——”
“I’m afraid not,” said Marcia Haddon. “I’m afraid there’s nothing you
can do for me. I’m afraid—well, I suppose I ought to try to be fair,
even now.” She could not refer directly in speech to the relations
between the dead yonder and the living here.
“That never gets anybody very much,” said Polly Pendleton. “You remind
me of that chap that came into my place in New York—Joslin, his name
was—he’s the grandson of this old lady that brought us in here!”
Now for the first time the slow red of anger rose to Marcia Haddon’s
face.
“I think you’ve said quite sufficient about that and many other
matters,” said she. “You certainly can’t discuss Mr. Joslin with
me—I’ll not have it. In fact, I’m not sure that you can discuss
anything with me any longer.”
“I’ve asked no odds of you,” she flared out, at last. “If you took my
husband from me, you took my leavings—there was nothing about him
that I cared for any more. Anything worth trying for—anything worth
fighting for—why, yes—I don’t know that I’d need fear you so much.
You came into my life not by my invitation, but I’m not so sure you
need ask me so much for forgiveness. What have I to forgive—or you?
He’s dead now—he’s gone from both of us. You’re welcome to what you
had.”
Her gaze unconsciously passed beyond the window, up to the hillside
where lay a little mound, a rude stone at the head.
“We’ll not say anything evil about him now—more than we have. He’s
found the way out, even if we haven’t as yet for ourselves. Our ways
must part, of course. But you can’t advise me and you can’t glory over
me. You’ve had my leavings. Is that quite plain?
“And now the way is plain for all of us—at last.” Her voice was
trembling.
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